Calamity & reconnect

Let me start that as we look at this month three years ago, I began hearing from the Hustler/Fiend again. I noted a number of times that he called me four times during the course of the previous month. And after my birthday in December I began seeing him on my facebook feeds on occasion. Especially once when announcing that I had seen Black Panther.

He called three times in February from a number I didn’t recognize. I realized this only after his third try that this anonymous individual decided to text “Call me!” Who is this asking me to call them? Well I sent such a text and got an answer I gave him a martial arts related nickname and he decided to use that to confirm who it was. Of course this was during that time where I was recovering from the “Reign of Error” and just decided I didn’t want to talk at all. He would call one more time after a week.

I get a number of calls from numbers I don’t recognize and usually don’t answer so I didn’t realize until this text message that he had been trying to call me. Perhaps he didn’t realize I didn’t have his other number, perhaps he thought like most people I’d just answer, only he really knows his thought process. What I do know is that he’s done something like this before in the past.

Just about four years earlier he texted me from a number I didn’t recognize letting me know that one of the managers from The Show had been let go. He wouldn’t respond to a text message requesting identity until I messaged him on facebook and he confirmed. Again probably didn’t recognize that I didn’t have whatever new number he had.

Regardless in my head the thought process was he probably had moved on. He got his last score, and perhaps if he did call it’s not to genuinely talk to yours truly but because he needed something. While I have no idea why he wanted to re-establish contact my belief is that he wanted me to call him because he needed something. It was almost similar to how the episode “One Final Drop” started off with a quick text “Call me! 911!” which indicated a sense of urgency more for him than me. Instinct told me this was about a small cash infusion something he can’t help but ask for on occasion while trying to tell yours truly what to do.

Again for me to avoid calling him once he started coming around the context of that time in 2018 was that yours truly was unemployed. I saved up over $10K since about year two or three at the theater only to have to cut that in just about half because of the somewhat unexpected event of a job loss. Therefore no income had been coming in on my end and thus if he expected a small cash infusion well in those circumstance why would I help him. However, there isn’t a satisfactory answer to this question as I never sought a resolution. At the same time a cat & mouse game had commenced he was the cat and yours truly was the mouse.

Meanwhile it was time to hit the Fresh Foods beat as it was my desire to return especially to the Hole. It wasn’t to be and I wound up going to another store from the Hole. We’ll revisit those episodes where I interviewed to return to my old team at the Hole in the next post.

Also later this month I wanted to share an episode where the Hustler had effectively used yours truly to fill out his own job applications. Well for those of you who have been following this, you shouldn’t be too surprised.

March 2015

At this point I was working at the Hole for just about 2 months. I didn’t know that soon I’ll be working “full-time” for the first time in life. The transition wasn’t too difficult, however, I was in a different environment than expected. Or was I?

What I was doing at a grocery store wasn’t terribly different than for example a theater concession stand. Just a bit more prep work and certainly a clearer idea of what’s expected. The products weren’t as limited as a cinema – you know popcorn, candy, hot dogs, etc. However, I had to get used to what I was doing and when I first started looking at a jobs with Fresh Foods my inclination was to be at the front end ringing up customer groceries.

Either way, I had to do another call with the state’s unemployment officials in March ’15 as Gotham Bank had filed an appeal after benefits were approved even if it was just for no more than three weeks – from the time I got let go from that branch in December ’14 to orientation at Fresh in January ’15. As it was termed I got benefits with an initial payout then after continuing to register weekly for regular payouts after that. It wasn’t much but for a brief time I had some income coming, and still no overhead. 😛

The initial process was easy and under the guidance of a friend – no not the Friend I never told him directly what happened with the bank. There were no direct documentation that I had to sign just a lot of verbal warnings and what not. I think the only main warning I got was not from anyone in mgmt or otherwise any standing but from co-worker. And I had to guess at the final act which I was never told directly. When Ed and Stan pulled me into the office Ed fired off a number of offenses which I could easily categorize as issues with attendance (specifically tardies) and performance as a teller. A list of things that allowed him to determine that he just didn’t like what he sees. Made sure to reference the probationary period for Gotham which was about 90 days, and I was just about halfway through that once things ran their course there.

So I guessed at what the final straw had been, I made sure to tell them what I had been told. Correctly I guessed one particular incident that happened that helped Ed make up his mind about my job there. I get a letter approving my benefits saying I was not at fault and the friend based on some of what I had been telling him determined that my training was an issue. Then again I will admit I was incompetent and uneasy in that role and as stated as time went on and didn’t get on well in my new role yours truly began to dread coming to work at that branch everyday…

For the record the hearing over the phone for the appeal had been cancelled I got a phone call for it the day it was supposed to happen. Actually in a fit of pretending to be my brother who hadn’t seen lived with us for over a decade I took a message that Gotham had rescinded their appeal. If the appeal from Gotham had gone through I’d have to repay that money and thankfully at that time it wasn’t necessary.

I had read up on the company and how they handled unemployment claims. It seemed they contested all unemployment claims and if they lost they will appeal. I had the unfortunately issue of being unable to find my schedule from the bank because in the initial phone call which was before my orientation for the Hole from what the agent told me over the phone there was some discrepancies as far as when that final act occurred. If I remembered the date the agent had told me correctly I wasn’t even at work that day and looked at a copy of my schedule from the bank still in my possession. If the appeal was rescinded I didn’t have to prove that.

However, one thing I could say for Ed one time he pulled me in the office and he got his dates wrong. While he was going to get me on something that given day, he was trying to mention something that we talked about on another day in the office and it was all wrong. I demonstrated that I do remember what we talked about everytime he wanted to talk $h!t to yours truly. Right or wrong Ed seemed to have some arrogance about him and this was not the first time nor the last time I encountered this from a manager. Problem is when they want to get you on something there isn’t much to say about it on my end and was still on the defensive in the long run….

Regardless smooth sailing in the new year at the new job. We started off with a decent crew in the beginning. A few we lost for a variety of reasons probably attendance related or otherwise just realized this wasn’t for them. However, I viewed my new job and company as yet another new beginning. Besides the hot shot job at the bank didn’t work out and that was supposed to be something of a new beginning from The Show.

Oh, yeah I like to talk about the big money years. Well 2015 was the start and it’s basically ongoing even with the hiccup that came later. Minimum wage in Illinois back in 2014 was still $8.25/hr. When I moved over to the bank I went up to about $3.25 more per hour than the hourly wage offered at The Show which was minimum wage. However starting off at Gotham the position was only 20 hrs a week and yes there were opportunities to add to your paycheck i.e. make referrals and never felt too comfortable doing that at the time. I think on Gotham’s version of a social network I saw there doing this for a year would get me, basically I wouldn’t make more money than I had made at The Show. Basically under my minimum goal of making $20K/year, my yearly income assuming no changes would still be roughly in the $10K/year range.

However at the Hole as time goes on that year, I get benefits mainly health insurance and dental. Also a raise after six months, and especially being lifted up into full-time status which means overtime and working up to 40 hrs a week I would ultimately reach that $20K/year goal in 2015. As far as benefits that would wait until a bit later I didn’t immediately get benefits or was unsophisticated about the company’s processes as far as enrolling in benefits once I became full-time. However, by the end of the year I’d get there.

After a couple of years of the streak era, I was going to achieve some of the minimum goals I had from roughly the start. A job with benefits and at a minimum make $20K/year.

Climax of the Reign of Error

I got to admit the climax forced yours truly to slow his role. At least that’s the conclusion I’ve had to come to years later. I put the climax on part with the situation involving the Hustler/Friend. As it turned out the whole calamity of 2017 would prove to be a turning point with our odd friendship.

I went from reaching what I thought of as an apex to my time at the Hole to a bit of a collapse. He’s as much part of the story as Roger or Mr. Boastful in my mind with 20/20 hindsight. He’s one example of someone who wasn’t in your corner and just wasn’t on the same page with yours truly. Everyone who you expect to be with you, often isn’t.

Mr. Boastful had some of the same interests as myself, I even considered him something of a friend. I had to conclude that he probably could speak the same language as the Hustler, except for one thing it actually got him somewhere. Once Rog decided to pull me off of buy/receive and post for the role that I couldn’t interview for Boastful went right for it. I had no choice but to suck it up, however, I thought some of his actions back then indicated a certain form of cockiness. As I accepted this, my view of this is one of us were moving up as Roger’s trend had been to bring in people he knew.

I even let Boastful in on meeting our mutual former boss at another Fresh store one day when I had been shopping. Even discussed possibly using some pull to leave, thankfully the smart thing I never told him was that I was on the verge of being let go due to the attendance probation. He knew points were an issue, he just didn’t know how bad. When the climax happened he probably knew then, if he took the time to think about it.

However, since he was getting in my head about it someone had to tell me he felt threatened. He had been ambitious seeking opportunities to move up. I tend to move slowly, however, he’ll go ahead and take the opportunities. Once I got out of the way he had the green light to go for it, however, as indicated in some earlier posts he was waiting for yours truly to make a mistake. There wasn’t much yours truly could do about that, however, he sure was letting me know he was paying attention to the situation. He probably wasn’t the only one either. Still the nagging feeling in the back of my head even now just lets me know what was in his head. Perhaps by my seeming ascension he indeed got threatened….

I should mention Roger, I was told belatedly that his issue has been that he stepped on a lot of toes trying to be real strict. Never really was familiar with that cliche, however, someone explained to me that it denotes trying to establish dominance. He wants everyone to know that he’s the boss and you will answer to him and he will take action which included termination. He wanted to be a hard-ass a term used by one of my former supervisors, and as noted many times on this blog he lost his hot-shot boss position in no less than six months.

Rog had the tendency to sneak up, to just walk up on yours truly and he did that on three occasions. It could be a means to intimidate and certainly to dominate. The first time he did this was not too long after he decided to make a big show out of yours truly being essentially out of uniform.

  • The first time I was on my way back from a 15-min break and was headed back to the floor. As I was headed back to the floor when I heard someone call me name out of nowhere. It was Roger just turning around a corner, he wanted to have a talk with yours truly in the office about fruit flies, empty boxes, food debris, and fruit flies because he found something else to complain about. I don’t remember for how long he was on duty on that given morning, but evidently something he felt necessary to address in that fashion.
  • The second time I was just about to do a box bale after finishing my receiving on that day. This wasn’t long after pulling me off the buy/receive thing. He had interviews for associate buyer – a position I couldn’t even interview for because I was on that “probation” – and as I was working I turned around and he was right behind me. Even made sure to note that people usually don’t like him sneaking up on them like he just did me (then why does he do it if he often gets negative feedback?). All he wanted in that instance was to have me cover for Mr. Boastful who had an interview for that position on that day.
  • The last time he did this on the day I actually consider the Climax of the Reign of Error. My last shift at the Hole, I was doing temps on my station and was no more than an hour and a half waiting for quitting time. Out of nowhere I hear behind me “Jack, come with me” in Rog’s nerdy baritone. From there he escorts me directly to store mgmt offices because that last tardy I had it was a means to get rid of yours truly.

That’s where I’m going to leave this! I will say that once he was all hush-hush at this moment I knew what was coming. But that meant after things run their course, he wasn’t going to hit me with anymore bull$h!t, however, what happened next is why he’s definitely in my book of infamy to this day.

Meanwhile….

The other day I talked with a colleague at work who was sitting in an office completing their performance review forms so that they can get a raise. He remains in my old dept and for over a year dropped down to part-time status as he wanted to go back to school and finish his undergrad. He had the need to change careers, which is a good thing.

He wasn’t very optimistic about whether or not he’ll actually get a raise considering what’s been going on for almost the past year. We’re in a period of great uncertainty as we’re learning this bug has spawned a few mutations which thankfully are reportedly not very lethal, however, much more easily transmissible. And it seems for now the vaccine should could cover these variants…

Regardless back to the situation at hand he was considering what the sales might be and I just told him it pays to be more optimistic. You just never know although when mgmt wants to pick they will. The way I see it, yours truly still got his raise last year and who knows what the sales were not within my former dept but the whole store in general. Sales probably aren’t what they would be in general in far more normal times. However, once he meets with his mgmt he’ll know what the picture looks like.

As far as yours truly, well I’m still looking for some opportunities. Just about two years ago a store opened a bit closer to home it’s a straight shot down the street towards a nearby suburb and perhaps I should’ve looked into it before that store opened. However, I really liked working downtown and that mentality still haven’t escaped me. The only time I applied for a store in the neighborhoods was when another store was about to open closer to home and interviewed for a supervisor position although I don’t think it was a great interview. There were some lessons for that as there were lessons for my attempt for associate buyer just about two years ago.

Regardless what has my attention is a full-time position posted for my old dept at this other store. I guess one consideration is that it would get me right back where I started, while I want to progress. Also at yet another store there is another full-time position still within the city, however, a lot further north from downtown which means a much longer commute. I don’t take that opportunity as seriously as the one much closer to home. But then who knows that might be the one that works out, that’s how these opportunities seem to work out to be honest.

Believe it or not it’s been over six years where I started off at the Hole. I didn’t know if I wanted to be in a dept other than the front end doing cashiering. As happens unfortunately you get a bit comfortable and you don’t want to pick up and leave. That was true in 2015, it’s sort of true even now. I was just getting off of what happened at Gotham near the end of the previous year and that was a situation that proved it wasn’t working out. And considering that before getting the job offer to be a bank teller, I had also earlier interviewed to be a manager at a cinema near what would later become the Hole.

I could look at that whole situation and say it was meant for me to be in that neighborhood where the Hole was located. And for over two years it worked out for me. Not the way I envisioned in my head, however, it was much better than being stuck at The Show still making over $10K per year still after almost five years. I got a bit more although now six years later and with a refresh I’m closer to $30K per year. And I feel as if I’m still not close to my goal of moving up.

Aside from that tangent remember when I talked about working a lot of nights. It seems they listen when I sign off of a sheet at the end of the night. I say I want to learn to make signs they allowed me that opportunity, they gave me to opportunity to learn a new task and they allowed me a night to do so – even got a talking to about not using a cut-glove when doing it. And while there was some interest in me doing some receiving in my new department I asked to do that just in an effort to get some days instead of these constant nights. Well they’re giving me those shifts for the first time in months…

I felt a bit miserable doing these shifts in the beginning. I would be in a cooler a lot more than when I did receiving in my original department. There were a lot more items to put away than in my original department, so to think it’s a real workout than what I feel as if I was used to. At the same time I’m trying something so that it won’t be so late when I get home. And my favor I somewhat know how it goes and it might make it a bit easier to get back to the goal I started on before the climax of the reign of error.

Meanwhile this winter seems quite relentless with the cold weather and we just got hit by another heavy snowfall which I had to dig out of the nex day. Perhaps it’s time to consider a much warmer locale, however, they’re getting hit by winters they don’t often expect….

Either way still working and we’re not yet halfway through 2021….

The Hook-Up Revisited

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As I revisit this long ago episode I wrote about during my hiatus from Fresh Foods, I just have to share this brief dialogue from my last real major episode with Anthony the Hustler/Friend during One Final Drop. Among other things that we had talked about when he asked to borrow more money he brought this up for the last time

Out of nowhere he brings this up, he said I “blew it with Greta” and then I hit him with “Blew what?”

Fiend: You blew it with Greta.

Yours Truly: I blew what?

Fiend: You blew it with her.

Y.T.: What did I blow?

Fiend: You blew it with her.

Y.T.: What did I blow?

And then I continue to ask that question and he was done answering. Perhaps he was going to hold onto it anyway, but that wasn’t getting him anywhere. That was my attempt to absolve myself of any feelings of “guilt”. There was no need for any guilt if in reality I had little interest in his scheme. I had no interest in a comedy show and in reality no interest in this “date” with Greta.

When I think about it now, this was all unfair to Greta. Perhaps my lack of interest in Ant’s scheme at the time as this whole thing was about me and in reality it was more about him. I had no real interest in spending my money for a comedy show at a major venue in downtown Chicago. And when we visited her at her job on the north side on a snowy and cold February day in 2013 there wasn’t much of a basis for yours truly to really attempt to connect. Even if I did drop a compliment on her which she seemed underwhelmed.

I told another friend of mine this who still talks to Anthony or he heard about it at some point with the Hustler. I tell him that Ant was really a bad matchmaker as there was just very little opportunity to really connect with Greta before this “date”. However in my humble opinion he had no real basis to try to make a match when he took the foot off the gas pedal on this. This was something he wanted and it went up in smoke, and if I believe his story Greta was mad with him and he tried to point the finger at me.

That’s why I had to ask him “What did I blow?” What was there to blow? Was she that keen on meeting with yours truly? I saw no hint of that and no opportunity on my part nor his to create that opportunity. On my end I felt as if I was being forced into this and as per usual did hardly anything to push back.

This was probably another episode of the fiend asserting his dominance and for years after this it would continue. He’d find a way to bring this episode up and even after I did retort in that barbershop back in 2017, I’m sure it still wouldn’t have been the end of it. He’d hold onto it using his disappointed father schtick to forward his dominance.

Come to think of it, the Hook Up episode was as much of a fail as the initial episode with Finer Foods and even D.B. He views them as fails. I didn’t keep up the pressure with Finer Foods to get an interview let alone a job with that company and as for D.B. there wasn’t much to do to end that conflict other than just not giving him his supply of attention because going back and forth with him gave him exactly that. And Greta in his mind is just another fail as far as dating women. All a fail according to him and it matters more than what I felt where the positive developments going on the last time I actually met with him as a friend and the last time he borrowed money.

We’re going to get to the climax of the Reign of Error however I feel as if Anthony had begun to really expose himself and his attitude more and more in 2017. If some new developments were occurring at the Hole at the time he didn’t care. He just mentions how I’d make more money at Finer Foods or instead of supporting my move to be a buyer he might still suggest I need to be a supervisor instead. Perhaps he didn’t like it when I went against his mentality as a disappointed father.

Not sure what else to add to this, I expressed the thoughts that was necessary to express. I’m certain however that there will be more thoughts on him to share in the near future. I feel as if whatever stories that’s on my mind about the Hustler will ultimately be expressed and it will be time to move on.

You’re free to read up my original Hook-Up post as well. Consider this your Anti-Valentine’s post. 😛

February

You know I’ve been promising the Climax of the Reign of Error post since about September and I think this month is as good of a time to finally write about it. I’ve written a basic story about the time where I worked my last shifts at the Hole, but it’s going to be the culmination of the creative direction for that period of time.

This month proved to be a turning point during my hiatus from Fresh Foods as this month I learned that /goofball was no longer in his position over my former dept at the Hole. When I first heard about it, the information I got was that he had either stepped down or was demoted and resigned and his boss Morley was upset with him when he did depart. It seemed like such a short order when Rog departed and ultimately replaced by Larry who used to be part of the dept in the beginning until he accepted a promotion elsewhere.

Just as snow fell recently on the Chicago area, heavy snow fell on the Chicago area once I heard this news. However, what this meant was that it was OK for yours truly to start re-applying and had started immediately upon hearing the news. Began to really test the waters with one of the supervisors who contacted me once the proverbial hammer fell.

Another thing of note in that period. Anthony my old friend who started coming back into contact with a series a phone calls from a number I did not recognize. And a text message with no identification asking yours truly to call him. I never did and an answer to this is considering the situation I unexpectedly found myself in starting in October. I didn’t want him to take that news and run with it as I figured he would.

As much as I want to transition away from that frequent subject, I do want to add some more thoughts to that this month. Even had been working on a post re-running that time he tried to get me on a date with someone we had worked with. It was a fail all around, but let’s further explore that. Perhaps it’ll be the perfect “anti-Valentine’s Day” piece.

Meanwhile, I continue to dig out and stay warm in these uncertain times. Hopefully you’re staying safe wherever you are right now!

What’s new

Lately at work I’ve been stuck with a bunch of nights lately, and I’m not happy about it. One way to look at this is well if I got there at 7 AM by the time I get off with no coffee I’m going to doze off when going home on the train. On the other hand if I have to go in later I sleep in. Going in early has drawbacks, but so does going in later and especially if I take public transit.

Either way I’ve been trying to decide how to put an end to these constant nights. Everyone once in a while is one thing, just about every night is another. Really this began before I left the other department and even then it wasn’t this consistent. I’m trying to avoid being a whiner because I’ve already worked with a number of those types anyway in my work life.

Either way I wish I had some more midshifts because at least I won’t just be leaving work at around 10:00 at night. I’d be fine leaving work at 8:00 but those are not the shifts I’m drawing lately.

I do want to express alternatives I’ve been looking at as been discussed occasionally since the pandemic started. Sadly some bad habits crop up when looking into these alternatives for example leaving the store and/or going to another department.

Last month I found out that one of my old supervisors from my old dept had left to go to my old store the Hole. I ran into him one day going there and shopping, I had little idea that he left my assignment. He was with us for a short time from just before the pandemic so more than a relatively respectable amount of time. According to him he just wanted to work at the Hole because it was more convenient for him and closer to home.

Well there’s one possibility going back to my old dept and taking his spot. So far my old dept hasn’t posted for another supervisor, they also lost an assistant mgr as he took on the same role at another store again closer to home for him. So far my old dept hasn’t posted for another assistant mgr and no I don’t think it’s the right role for yours truly right now. Supervisor I wouldn’t mind interviewing for, and then again who knows they could just elevate their trainer into that role if they so chose. If they feel there is a gap in coverage then that could be a step in the right direction.

One of the supervisors – actually he was a trainer when I tried to get back with the Hole just about three years ago – has moved onto another store. He’s now an assistant manager in a different department. I haven’t contacted him since he’s no longer on facebook evidently. That means my old dept at the Hole should be looking for another supervisor and so far see no such evidence of that.

You know it might just be sales don’t support doing any hiring for any higher level positions as of late due to the pandemic. Remember I always stated it was more likely for me to return to the Hole than it is for yours truly returning to The Show. However, the holidays come and gone and I see nothing is still going on with my former department. Perhaps this whole thing has really did a number with the old team which I know is a much different team today. Regardless while my old team at my current store has hired new people although there are people (mostly part-times unlike yours truly) who got shunted away to other departments were surely told they have “dibs” on any future hiring that just hasn’t happened assuming they don’t want to go back to that department.

I had passed up one opportunity I could be interested in. It was at the store closest to The Show meaning a return to the old neighborhood as it were. I would be a receiver in yet another dept so it would be up my alley and expectantly earlier start time. That posting was up for a couple of weeks and I see it has since been taken down. Perhaps they found someone they want to interview or they just had no takers so far. It’s something I do want to get back into which I why I hoped the Hole would finally post for those positions by now.

When I first wrote this post I found a position that Larry has finally posted for at my old dept at the Hole. It’s a part-time position and right now I’m just not interested in that. I’ll keep my eye out for something I think I could apply for there. Meanwhile I just need to keep my options open. Meanwhile let’s go back to the close I had already written.

Unfortunately there goes my handicap. Going for what I want instead of taking the opportunities available. I want to return to the Hole with some of the changes there, however, nothing for me to pursue. I can’t help but hesitate with opportunities other than the Hole or even my current assignment. I just need to create my plan and work the plan….

Otherwise that’s what’s been happening with me so far this year. Here’s hoping 2021 is a better year.

Nuisance

A few things to rehash here. This was part of the drama of almost four years earlier and it ended halfway during the course of that year of Calamity 2017.

Actually I don’t know if I can call this drama. Yours truly never intended to leave the Hole or Fresh Foods Inc. Perhaps it was part of the “complacency” at the same time with things seemingly going in the “right” direction why would I?

I surmised at the time that Anthony was just jealous or at least that had to be part of his willingness to inject “if you come to Finer Foods, you’d make more money”. Now to this day I still don’t know where this comes from, but being jealous was an easy answer.

Though to be honest, perhaps I did talk too much about what I thought was my good fortune at the time. Perhaps he got tired of it and just decided to throw doubt into the wind because he knew he could. Who knows, but if he had an issue with how seemingly content I had been with where I was at the time that’s on him.

Of course couple his unneeded and unheeded advice with the fact that he was begging. Remember the episode One Final Drop, he brought up “jumping ship” for the last time. Either way I never took him up on his “lead”, at least until the Climax of the Reign of Error had passed and well still never got interviewed/hired with Finer’s.

Also I couple this strange “campaign” with the fact that well years earlier I tried to get on with them twice. Once for another store set to open and yet another at the Hustler’s insistence. Still got no offer and worse still with his connections and insistence the other case resulted in no interview even if I was at his old store to be interviewed. So I had that history in mind whenever he continued to bring it up, and as per usual I wasn’t as forceful to tell him then that I just wasn’t interested at all.

Finally I took the photo of the Finer Foods sign at a corner store somewhere on the South Side. It seemed fitting for this fictionalized company I created. Perhaps it’s time to create a fictionalized logo for both Finer’s & Fresh Foods. I got photoshop hmmmm.

I hope you enjoy this brief look back.

Feeling No Love

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I hinted a few days ago at how Anthony continued to bring up the name Finer Foods at random a few times when we were still “friends”. It was often at random the first time he wanted to talk about what happened a few years earlier occurred after I mentioned that I visited one of their newer stores. He wanted to know what happened with that and I knew what he was referring to. Unfortunately only he knows why he wanted to re-open the dialogue with regards to that.

There was a time and I don’t remember if this was before that or later that I was talking about how much I liked Fresh Foods. I had been with that company for just about two or more years at that point and his response to how much I liked where I was “I think you’ll like Finer’s better!” He said…

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At the end of last year, I realized in order to attract a mate you have to put in some work. I suppose earlier last year I had created a template for this purpose. I suppose there is something to work towards in the new year.

Just remember as far as my own personality, this really is going to be work. It won’t take much to slip back into some bad habits. Let’s bring it!

Feeling No Love

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What if it’s possible to remake your image? And it doesn’t matter how old you are it just matters that you’re determined to make some changes.

I like to think everything isn’t set in stone. What if you can make changes to your lifestyle? What if you can make changes to your attitude?

If people hold you to what you used to do when you were younger, does this mean you disassociate? I’ve had to do this with someone I knew, knowing among other things that they have the tendency to bring things from the past to the forefront. It’s is as if today doesn’t matter, past actions matters more and remains part of the discussion.

What prompted this was that a coworker asked about the ride I have one day at work recently. I want you all to know I don’t own my own vehicle, however, it’s one of…

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Climax of 2017

On New Years Day 2018, I was out of work. I had two interviews from the jump with the national theater chain I had been employed during 2016 – the Dine-In Show which I also had an interview and didn’t get an offer. I had also been interviewed with the theater I had been trying to get on board with when I was still at The Show up until 2014 which resulted in no-offer.

I was still dealing with the ouchie from being let go from the Hole and although I knew that Ruthless Roger wasn’t going to last long with a paucity of updates about the situation at that point I was beginning to believe in a different narrative. Perhaps Rog might actually work out in his role, he’s fulfilling his role as a change agent trying to inject some new blood into my former department. I was just about a month away from realizing that it hadn’t worked out and he was no longer in charge of my former department. And it was time to re-apply with Fresh Foods.

I know I promised a Climax of the Reign of Error post, there isn’t much I feel is necessary to write right now. I’ve written a few times about what happened – my train was running late due to an unforeseen emergency got a late slip because it wasn’t in my control and certainly by Rog and definitely by Morley it was justified as corporate never said anything and no one else had been affected so you’re out BYE. One part of the story to be told was Rog just hours before the end of my shift snuck up behind me to escort me into the store mgmt offices only for him to walk back out coldly. On second thought I do want to hash that out.

Either way I didn’t know that this month Roger was on his way out as dept mgr for my old department at that point. I was still applying during the cold of winter establishing a new routine as the previous routine was unceremoniously changed over two months earlier.

You know the climax was hard because my mother was unemployed from earlier the year before. She lost her job when her company was taken over by banking regulators. I lost my job and had a not as healthy senior citizen mother at home. I knew that yours truly was going to be the primary breadwinner although at least my mother had her own retirement to lean on. Regardless with me out of work she had a different role at that point than she would’ve had in different times.

At that point all yours truly could do was continue plugging away though for the moment just avoid Fresh Foods until I was close to getting out of that 6 month period before I could reapply.

It wasn’t until I stated on Facebook that I saw Black Panther that Anthony/The Hustler/Fiend had been flushed out. He actually wished me a happy birthday out of the blue the year before, however, I really hadn’t heard much from him since the summer before. I never communicated to him about the job loss and once the soft blackout with him commenced he had no idea how things just began to go 180 degrees in a whole different direction. I often get the feeling he’d take advantage of such disarray…

Regardless all he had to do before he started trying to get into contact was attempt to comment on Facebook “you never said what theater you went to” once I noted seeing Black Panther. I deleted the comment feeling a bit irritated that he was attempting to repeat a schtick that was no longer amusing at that point.

I suppose not much to report for that period of time. Just hopeful as one can be in a somewhat different circumstance.

I do want to add however that I heard different things about Roger’s last few days at the Hole. I heard from Wil who was the associate buyer that until Rog had departed he hardly spoke to anyone. Two supervisors noted that he had bought a house in the suburbs and evidently didn’t want to commute into downtown any longer – sounds like an excuse doesn’t it. Even one supervisor somewhat expressed such a thought to yours truly when I contacted him. I heard through the grapevine – not from those aforementioned supervisor – that he was pulled aside once he referred to his department as a bunch of gangbangers. Yeah that’ll do it, and once hearing that I just started laughing because it made sense.

Either way while I was buying into the hype in my own head that he just might work out, the reality was that he may well have been exposed while finding people he can get rid of. Eventually I will have more of a complete picture once I return to work in the spring.