for the moment i’m taking a brief two post break from my current stream of thoughts. mainly to announce that it’s about time to start retiring as a storyline for this blog anything involving “the show”.
it’s past time to let that portion of my work life go. sometimes when i do talk about that experience my attitude which i hope to go towards the positive begins to take a backslide to the negative. for a while it took me some time to just finally get some of that out of my system. not that it will ever entirely be out of mind, i just know that some other more pressing issues will take precedence in the future.
if i ever bring that place up again beyond this month and the next it will only be in reference not to some past incidents but only for something that has happened recently. for example i saw one of the new senior managers open the doors to “the show” fairly recently. he had recently been promoted and i was already in the area as i was shopping in the complex where the theater was located. you will see that in a future post.
perhaps some incidents that i have intentionally left vague will be hashed out a bit more and hopefully not to the point where i will only rile myself up all over again. otherwise no sense in rehashing something that has already happened with no way of changing it. it happened and at this point i should know what needs to be done differently.
someone had to tell me that in some of my behaviors back then i often seek to avoid interacting with the more temperamental and immature of the coworkers i worked with back then. of course with varying degrees of success there were also some failures that resulted in more drama. in other situations where i didn’t avoid those types it just backfired on me regardless and i couldn’t help but feed into whatever preconceived notions they already had.
also as i could state many of these individuals with very few exceptions only merge together with nothing that truly distinguishes them. in many cases the drama they created are really just silly immature drama and the things they want to complain about aren’t much different from all the individuals involved. meaning many of the dramas and the individuals involved aren’t really worth writing about!
as of now the blog needs to go back to some form of positivity. if i stay mired in any negativity from the past, then i’ll be right back to where i was by the time i left “the show”…stagnant and miserable.
it was something of a small victory for me back in 2014 when i finally handed in my two weeks and had a victory lap where it didn’t entirely matter to me who did what. after so many interviews and no job offer it felt great to know that someone was willing to take a chance on me. “the show” kept me in place, but leaving finally assured my future and growth.
this blog will continue to be about my future!