Got a rough timeline as far as when Ruthless Roger quit his job at “Fresh Foods” and when Larry interviewed and ultimately got the job. While I’m not blaming Roger entirely for my firing which was the result of built up tardiness that got me hit with an attendance probation, he’s the one that I could say allowed it to happen. While I’m responsible for my tardies, I’d have respected him if he had even attempted to excuse that last tardy with the delay slip from the transit authority. Either way now he’s no longer the dept mgr I have to worry about.

These events happened within the span of a three week period and remember I just found out about these turn of events last weekend. Sometime in January, Roger was said to have quit possibly after a demotion. Of course as happens in large corporations presumably the job had been posted and opened the door for Larry to apply and interview for the now open dept mgr position. Just recently say within the past two weeks Larry interviewed and got the job that same day.

This helps solidify my thought that Roger’s bosses realized he wasn’t working out for my former dept at Fresh Foods. It was a rough time noticed even by the boss I had from when the store first opened, while I didn’t want to be downright negative with him I rightly stated that the new regime (i.e. Roger and his mgmt team) is why things in our dept was rough. Say at that point – before firing – that things just weren’t going well for yours truly at that and little did I know upon seeing my former boss that soon I won’t be working for “Fresh Foods”. I was under the gun or certainly on the brink, but if only I had a crystal ball.

All the same, I’m out of the door and Roger as it turns out was on his way out a bit later. Larry was waiting for that position to open up and store mgmt was looking to bring him in. And funny thing is, I wasn’t sure it would happen the store Larry had moved onto become a dept mgr was said to be closer to home for him. However, what I expect is that Larry has the experience as a dept mgr that in reality Roger didn’t exactly have even with being an assistant manager at the store where he came from which was also a strong store. It leads me to believe Roger was set up to fail.

Now with that said a lot of us who worked in that dept under Roger were somewhat bristling under some of the changes that were taking place. I know I was having been moved from receiving under BS reasons he needed to post for another associate buyer although we already had one because this was how it was supposed to have been done and he needed to do it before they just took it from him. It was an odd explanation, but I let it be if he had straight up said it was about the attendance – which effectively kept me from applying for the associate buyer job – I’d have accepted that. Unfortunately he just gave what I consider a BS excuse to not go forward to allowing me stay in that role it was an indication as far as how he was going to manage. Reality though I started realizing how I wasn’t feeling him & perhaps he wasn’t feeling me either.

I should note even after the probation he was all set to allow me to be the dept receiver. I was supposed to have gotten access to the systems I had largely waited all summer to finally get. This means I could really do some buying and not really need anyone around me to do these tasks at least on a slow day. Didn’t happen and he didn’t keep his word and probably more important I never stayed on top of him. Also remember I heard through another colleague that the person who replaced me on receiving should’ve gotten a raise and he didn’t get one. So just like he didn’t follow through for me to only get the position, he evidently at the time I heard this didn’t follow through on the raise for that colleague.

I recognize that I hadn’t been the only one many in the dept were feeling the way I felt. Granted it might have been only a handful, however, it was rough on a lot of us. Also bear in mind during this period we began to get short staffed because in part a lot of people had been let go – likely initiated by Roger who used the book to get them out or he found a way to let go of the seasonal people hired before he arrived – and certainly because many had quit. Perhaps they saw that he wasn’t the type of manager we had been used to and they chose to bail before they became a target. Something I should’ve done before he officially took over, there was another store that I should’ve been looking at for sure.

What I began to realize at least before I left that store was that Roger may not have been a good fit for that store. He came from a larger dept at a larger store this is the first time he was in charge of a whole dept experience wise. To start as the team had been composed before I departed he just didn’t mesh well. Now I recognize there are ways to handle it and he certainly took advantage of this especially using the book to do so perhaps there might have been signs for his bosses to realize he really wasn’t working out. Perhaps the sales were good and all the other measures for that dept, however, if his associates weren’t that motivated under him aside from fear of write-ups perhaps for his bosses that was a problem.

I had been upset about what happened with me for a while up until the time I learned he had been demoted and quit his job. Then I had to turn around and realize Roger had began to fulfill his mission, he was very by the book and set out to run the dept that way. It was his job to just stir the pot so to speak and shake us out of our routines. That was his mission and as far as success, well because he quit without a two-week notice it’s a mixed bag now.

As far as Larry what to expect. Well Larry is coming back to run the dept I had worked for at “Fresh Foods” that experience I see as a plus. Also he had moved up fairly quickly during his stay at that store moved up from supervisor to assistant mgr to dept mgr. He probably will mesh well with whoever of the original characters that are still there. Hopefully he’ll be very keen to bring me right back once he arrives to take over next month. Furthermore whatever odd changes that Roger made, I would expect Larry to undo most of them. Larry may even decide the changes never made any sense, unless store mgmt decided they never made sense anyway.

Either way if when I return, perhaps I’ll see the transition. I can see what Larry does with that dept and see if it’ll be much better than under Roger. Perhaps he won’t be that much different, at this point all I can say is he will get a chance with me. Otherwise, I’d be very happy to go elsewhere for the right opportunity. Like I said, I will figure this out and of course do what’s right for me and that includes the attendance. The next time I write about “Fresh Foods” hopefully it’ll be because I’m back at work.


odds & ends

img_1368sometime in august i ran into a coworker from the “dine-in show”, francis. he seems depressed over the recent changes at the dine-in since i left them behind in summer 2016. it’s safe to say that he’s got some of the complaints that i have now about some of the changes going on at both of our jobs.

to which i say will say in the last post i did about my current job, most of that information may not necessarily be correct. most of this is nothing although i know one thing the new boss for my dept. at “fresh foods” is certainly bringing in new people to the right positions, especially people from his old store. he’s entitled to do that, but imho it seems somewhat unfair. he’s also entitled to make some changes also. things change and it won’t likely won’t go back to what i’m used to.

anyway back to francis, he was helping out at my usual theater – the one i may go to when i get off work in early afternoons. he was merely helping out as most of the associates there were to attend a beach party. i asked him if he thought to transfer but he seemed reticent – he could at least stay in box office at the dine-in, however at this theater he likely would have to usher or do concessions. he’s not excited about that and yet he doesn’t like his current theater now. the company he currently works for has opportunities for him to move from theater to theater and to even get promoted he should find ways to take advantage. meanwhile i also made sure to give him the rundown on “fresh foods” and got his e-mail just to send some jobs his way.

* incidentally since maybe earlier this year one of the new managers over there was a manager at the dine-in show. i’ve been applying to this theater for years and have been not smart enough to blow off the phone calls or i never heard from them. actually i told one story about getting a call from there and i just procrastinated!

all the same she’s there now and knows that i come to the show there. so if i wanted a second gig another possibility here. though the question is whether or not i should take advantage and just ask about my application. at least this time my availability won’t be an issue this time since now i mostly work mornings. i also plan to adjust my availability to make this so!

also  find out that she’s essentially THE senior manager there. to explain at this company the senior manager is essentially the theater’s assistant general manager or the equivalent at “the show” the house manager. when i refer to a senior manager at “the show” i basically refer to salaried managers who have far more responsibilities that include hiring and firing than the supervisors.

with this in mind if working at this theater was something i truly wanted i have an in. hopefully she would be receptive to me coming on board there knowing that i work nearby at “fresh foods” and i’m often there at the movies.


*as far as a blast from the past i ran into my former boss at another local “fresh foods” store. it was unexpected he said he was there helping out which is always good. he especially helps out in the dept where he made his name. as of now he remains an associate store manager at another location not this one i ran into him at, but another location which recently opened.

we talked about this store and how much sales it makes per day. even some positions that had opened up. i let him know that i’m giving the new regime at my store some time before i decide to make a leap. although the real reason for giving myself some time was some of the attendance issues i have right now. i want one to clear by february before i start applying to some jobs. i may discuss more about this in greater detail in a future post.

the old boss understood, but remembered some of the “job dialogues” we’ve had. incidentally he suggest going for a buyer position to move up. even said at that store a supervisor position is opening up and even if i chose to go for neither and still come over as a regular employee i’d still be considered a leader there. and it’s great to know he’s still speak up for me if i ask. although i also realize i got to tell him about some of my attendance issues. he can speak up for me but that’s all he can do! i indicated interest in touching bases with him and that will include any future positions i apply for.

* at the job now there is some drama which is funny because here i used to really hint at the drama that occurred at “the show”. really it’s teenage girl drama by those who come there only to stir trouble around them. of course this time is more adult drama that is really about the job.

i wish i could tell the old boss that one of his replacements is shaking things up, which is his job, but it’s something i’m not happy about. also some of his star players no longer work there and as per the new boss. also the new boss essentially is bringing in people he knows to the main positions in the department.

i also wish i could tell him that the guy who helped train him – as per an email that was posted not long before our old boss left our store – well he’s not happy. he’s worried that his coworkers and manager are talking about him behind his back. i also wish i could tell him that as a receiver the new boss elected to push me aside for some vague reason although i now know that it’s to put in people he knows. again that’s his prerogative. what i didn’t want to do is make this situation so negative that he begins to wonder if i’m as much the problem. besides his view of me having a good attitude is what allowed him to hire me in the first place!

* btw, i’m not finished talking about “the show” yet. basically my timeline had been thrown by things that i wanted to discuss hopefully by the middle of the month or end of october “the show” storyline will basically come to an end. no use in discussing old drama that i won’t likely revisit.

hopefully i can come up with that next great puff piece about my time there will be coming along when i finally let this portion of my life go. and believe me i cannot wait!

October 2014

i think there have been a few other iterations of this post already. one was likely dated similarly to this one and others represent the period after the last two interviews of the “streak era” and my last two weeks at “the show”. so hopefully I’ll do something different here and if not well soon this storyline will be concluded in the next series of posts. perhaps no later than the middle of this month.

anyway, the situation at the show was beginning to somewhat turn. i gotten written up the previous month for taking too long on my break. i just about got into it with a b*tch of a senior manager who decided to bicker with me. she cut it off quick although she was determined to write me up.

i only refer to her that way because in a light moment in an office counting me down and taking to her colleague she came out with her saying “she can be a b*tch”. more often than not especially if some associate wasn’t meeting her expectation that tense side came out and a few times she directed it towards me. although through some intelligence that behavior came out because she found herself frustrated with her role at “the show” also.

anyway the young people were a bit more defiant especially if i try to tell them something. and at worse i may work with one young person who claims they forgot where their register was. and them expecting me to say something gets all upset when i call them out as lazy and wants to start a fight right there! though in reality the tension began the moment i blew them off – a teenage girl of course – when they decided it’s ok to speak to me. anyway no recovery with me there, that potential relationship is shot and good riddance.

i got two interviews this month and it was with a branch of “gotham bank” that hired me and a theater manager position that didn’t hire me. i feel as if i blew the theater manager gig for the national chain. not to say i was unserious but i did get to think about my frustrations and their knowledge of “the show’s” general manager. he wasn’t someone i really worked with often and i couldn’t describe him as a mentor. though as a manager he tried to be as above it all as possible even if some of his senior managers and supervisors just weren’t.

the gotham bank interview actually took place at a different branch from where i would be assigned. good interview where the branch manager got in on the interview and i wish i had worked with them in the long run. while considering the results this was the job that ultimately got me away from the show.

i turned in my notice to one of the senior managers who was the human resource point. i had already been discussing my job search with him anyway. after putting in my notice he gets a thank you card for giving me some “moral” support. other select mgmt i told as appropriate.

ironically two of the more problematic senior managers – the house manager & the b*tch – were incredibly curious about me leaving. more than i had expected them to be and i was semi-suspicious of them. if it was just cordiality for them, deep inside with me i just wanted to tell them to go to hell! although if anyone just wanted me gone it would’ve been them and i mostly worked the last few days of my notice.

btw, this month i fixed my teeth. funny part is that i got a new job with bad teeth and before starting my teller job i arrived at work with new teeth. also i cancelled that initial dental appointment for that procedure to do this interview. i really wanted to leave “the show”.

incidentally having arrived at the new job didn’t start off very well. i kept having issues with my timeliness and that didn’t look good. as time went on it was one thing to get nit-picked over another. it got to the point where i dreaded going to work and while things were bad at “the show”, i never felt the dread as i began to feel about the bank before i was eventually let go.

meanwhile it was registering more and more with some of the mgmt at the show that my time there was coming to an end. thankfully not because someone wanted me gone, but i said i was leaving. i know there were many who wanted yours truly gone and if not mgmt, but other associates. all they did essentially was allow me to find something better.

also my mother bought a new car and for the last time i drove her old vehicle – which remained at a dealer where she left it – to work and back into our garage. i shared a pic of it to my ig page it was the vehicle that ferried me to work when she allowed me to drive there. this was something i was going to miss for sure. the night time drives back home and on occasion meandering about on the way home.

regardless the “streak era” had ended. a new era away from the theater was about to begin. my mother got a new car. i also got new teeth – a flipper – which some of the coworkers noticed the difference especially when i open my big mouth. 😛

as i said my final good byes to some of the coworkers – and even noted this for some of my former colleagues – there was some apprehension as to my new role. it was less than ideal but again the offer i got was what got me away from “the show”. my situation with my coworkers and my pay wasn’t likely to change so this was the impetus for me to leave and finally. no more questions about whether or not i was “too comfortable” or whether or not i was trying to leave. i put in my notice and said BYE to “the show”.

all the same some people were coming out of the woodworks to wish me luck and shake my hand. others it probably didn’t matter too much to them they may know or perhaps for some odd reason glad i was out the door. regardless i worked my final night at the theater shook hands, got my final soft-drink in a courtesy cup, gathered my belongings, and after almost five years off to new adventures!

odds & ends

* recently i went to my bank to deposit my federal tax refund. most of it is being used for bills the rest is being saved. the bank i went to was empty as it’s undergoing a transition having failed earlier this year. this bank was where i had my savings account since i was 18. now it has me thinking i should change banks though i was keen on doing it when the failure occurred i’ve since been taking my time and still thinking about it.


* speaking of that bank, my mother recently went there to clean out her office. she hadn’t seen the inside of that place since she went on medical leave again in december. she was why i had an account there in the first place starting a savings account for me so that i have somewhere to deposit the social security checks for my dad. all the same all the changes that occurred the failure and ultimate sale to another bank happened while my mother was on medical leave. because of these changes she never returned to work. that’s a story in and of itself however.

* for this now i call this current period “the apocalypse”. i could compare this period to the “streak era” from 2012 to 2014 where i was getting interviews but no job offers. this period is far more different and of significant change which led to my mother’s unexpected retirement. that day was coming sooner or later and now it just means she’s not in the position to help me anymore and i’m literally going to be on my own. i see it as a positive development however there was some uncertainty as there had been when i left “the show” in 2014 to become a bank teller

* what led to this period is a bit of an interesting story and happened long before my mother was diagnosed with a compound fracture in her hip/thigh area. the real effects of this new situation involved insurance. when my mother’s employer sent a check to pay premiums the insurer sent the check back because that company no longer exists. the new company had their own insurance and insisted on using that instead of paying for what already existed. it resulted in my mother having to scramble to seek further treatment from her hospital when a nursing service called her to say her insurance was cancelled and no nurse would come to the house. so my mother further scrambled to get medicare and then get some form of tweener insurance.

* it finally connects in my mind that it’s more or less all me now. definitely a scary prospect, however, because of my mother’s condition it makes some goals more difficult. for example i’m interested in moving out, however, that plan is tempered by the fact that mother isn’t as mobile as she used to be. another wrinkle is that i may possibly choose to leave home and when i do my mother may choose to sell her house. she doesn’t want to be at home by herself and i really don’t want her to sell off the house.

* in this new era of significant change i have some decisions to make. especially now that i’m about to head into the 2nd half of 2017. the decision i make will allow me to be far more comfortable about even thinking about dating in the future. besides if i get nookie from any prospective woman the last place i’d want to take her is home where my retired mother lives.


milestone – leaving “the show”


guess what i found today among the junk i need to throw away in my bedroom? at “the show” i wore a number of hats one of them was as an usher who sat theater guests. so i had a seating schedule from the very last night that i worke there.

dear white people – ouija – the equalizer – john wick – st. vincent – gone girl. they were all movies that were showing that night and from this night i was leaving the theater business for the time being. it was a somewhat interesting night that proved to be a milestone and i was pessimistic this day would come. it finally did!

a few of the managers wished me a good luck even if in some cases they had to be prodded. some of the “foes” didn’t say much, probably didn’t know i was leaving if not outright indifferent. many of the managers couldn’t believe – even if some had relatively rough relations with me – i was leaving them.

trust me it was past time. i emphasize that at “the show” i was never paid more than minimum wage – which was then $8.25/hr – and no benefits. while i got less hours from – you know let’s give them a name – “gotham bank” my pay went up to $11.50/hr and eligible for benefits in 90 days. the great period of frustration was about to end and it was time to start a new chapter.

to set up this period of time during the course of that particular week i was doing some training in downtown chicago at an office for “gotham bank“. it made it somewhat easier to come down and work my last few days at “the show”. they were all shifts that started at 8:30 AM to about 5:00 PM. as it turned out this was the easiest part of the new job.

i told one of the supervisors to find me on fb using an e-mail address. i shook hands with a colleague, a security guard who i got to know, and one of the senior managers. another supervisor came out with best wishes unexpectedly, she likely didn’t know i was leaving someone probably told her that night. i got a courtesy cup of water got my things and out of the door i went. i was hearing a tune from the butler as i walking from the theater for the last time as an associate.

i feel as if this is something to frame. this was my last night there and after that i wasn’t coming back to work. i was already talking about skipping my last schedule day there because during the time i had been scheduled i was still doing the training at the “gotham bank” office. a bit of a conflict though now that this was about the end of my two-week period it didn’t matter.

one era ends a new one starts and that means off to new adventures starting with the bank.



our dept. manager left over the weekend. he already announced he was leaving the company. one of the assistant managers told me quietly that he applied to a job at another store in another department. we found out recently that he got it….

at one point in our dept. we had five assistant managers. our original manager left to become an assistant store manager at another store. one of the assistants – who opened with us moved on to california at another store and in a different dept. one of the other assistants became the new dept. manager.

another one who got promoted to two roles while there ultimately becoming one of the five assistant managers became a dept. manager at another store. and the changes aren’t ending there our acting dept. manager is planning to move in the near future so she won’t be there much longer either.

in other words, we got a changing dept after over two years. i don’t feel stagnant as of now since i’ve learned other stations so i need to work with the manager i do have right now. as long as i can still make money and continue to grow in that dept i’m not doing too bad. now i should consider what else i can do to expand my skills.

while i may view this with concern, perhaps i shouldn’t yet. time will tell if i have no choice but to make my own changes. unlike at “the show”, i had barely a path because i narrowed it.

if i wasn’t growing as a box office, concessionist, or usher i could go to the restaurant. i had little interest in being a server or a bartender. perhaps i could be a busser or a host – i had a joke a male host would be called a male hostess lol. i had little interest in working the kitchen. and yes i wanted to become a supervisor ultimately, but what had i shown them and would it have mattered if i did.

interestingly i kept making jokes about the old job, about the show at work one night. and one of the supervisors asked point blank what we could do to keep up morale. it’s very important now more than ever.

i joked about how if morale is in the tank find ways to make people far more miserable. talk as much shit to them as possible when they start complaining. don’t make any changes, play favorites. generally just keep people on edge.

so he asked point blank and i gave him some pointers. don’t just beat people upside the head with rules changes. make expectations clear. then i came up with since we may not have “leaders” in our dept for a minute. let the leaders emerge.

there was a posting in the back for the customer service department to have regular employees work the front desk. and this position could lead at some point or ultimately provide training for a customer service supervisor. perhaps at this critical time this department could do the same thing. have a point for our critical areas. perhaps that’s one idea that will carry forward until we have our new boss.

the idea wouldn’t be to give them the responsibility without giving them the compensation. it would be to give them the responsibility so that they would be ready to take on the new role of supervisor. something to consider at this time, hopefully.


on a sunday i had just gotten home from work my aunt paid us a visit shortly before i got off work. just before i got settled my mother wanted me to go put some trash out so i went ahead and did it because she said it was leaking. before i got out of the house i made sure to put the trash in another garbage bag and took it out.

then after i get back in and expected to settle in for the night, my mother bellows from the kitchen with her sister that she wanted me to go back out and get her some more water from the car. talk about terrible timing as she knew i just got back in and she expected me to go back out to the garage.

i don’t know how she became funny about water. i bought two gallon jugs of water, then almost a whole case of bottled water from the car on another day, and then she wanted me to buy more Dasani waters. so on that occassion she wanted me to get the dasani that was still in the car in the garage. that irritated me and let her know i just came from outside, i’m sure she knew i didn’t like that unfortunately her process isn’t on the same time as my own. i hated making two trip like that and unnecessarily. i’ve begun to learn that she’s awful with timing…

speaking of bad timing my mother is on leave from her current job and unfortunately in something of a hostil takeover her company was taken over by another. the processes of this company is different that the one they took over and as a result this company immediately cancelled the insurance plans of their new employees. my mother is scrambling to find out how she’s going to pay for the doctor we’ve been having a nurse come over at first to administer iv fluid now it’s to clean out the portal which is now coming out soon. still just more drama at this point and my mother is still not at the point where she will be able to return to work.

my mother since she returned from the hospital has largely been bereft of energy. the treatment she had to go through in december to further treat her compound fracture had taken its toll. her immune system got depressed with this treatment. taking out bone marrow and replacing some blood plasma without a doubt is a traumatic treatment. plus she really hasn’t been able to eat a lot of food just doesn’t have a healthy appetitte right now although she’s always been something of a nibbler it’s just worse now than ever.