odds & ends

* recently i went to my bank to deposit my federal tax refund. most of it is being used for bills the rest is being saved. the bank i went to was empty as it’s undergoing a transition having failed earlier this year. this bank was where i had my savings account since i was 18. now it has me thinking i should change banks though i was keen on doing it when the failure occurred i’ve since been taking my time and still thinking about it.

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* speaking of that bank, my mother recently went there to clean out her office. she hadn’t seen the inside of that place since she went on medical leave again in december. she was why i had an account there in the first place starting a savings account for me so that i have somewhere to deposit the social security checks for my dad. all the same all the changes that occurred the failure and ultimate sale to another bank happened while my mother was on medical leave. because of these changes she never returned to work. that’s a story in and of itself however.

* for this now i call this current period “the apocalypse”. i could compare this period to the “streak era” from 2012 to 2014 where i was getting interviews but no job offers. this period is far more different and of significant change which led to my mother’s unexpected retirement. that day was coming sooner or later and now it just means she’s not in the position to help me anymore and i’m literally going to be on my own. i see it as a positive development however there was some uncertainty as there had been when i left “the show” in 2014 to become a bank teller

* what led to this period is a bit of an interesting story and happened long before my mother was diagnosed with a compound fracture in her hip/thigh area. the real effects of this new situation involved insurance. when my mother’s employer sent a check to pay premiums the insurer sent the check back because that company no longer exists. the new company had their own insurance and insisted on using that instead of paying for what already existed. it resulted in my mother having to scramble to seek further treatment from her hospital when a nursing service called her to say her insurance was cancelled and no nurse would come to the house. so my mother further scrambled to get medicare and then get some form of tweener insurance.

* it finally connects in my mind that it’s more or less all me now. definitely a scary prospect, however, because of my mother’s condition it makes some goals more difficult. for example i’m interested in moving out, however, that plan is tempered by the fact that mother isn’t as mobile as she used to be. another wrinkle is that i may possibly choose to leave home and when i do my mother may choose to sell her house. she doesn’t want to be at home by herself and i really don’t want her to sell off the house.

* in this new era of significant change i have some decisions to make. especially now that i’m about to head into the 2nd half of 2017. the decision i make will allow me to be far more comfortable about even thinking about dating in the future. besides if i get nookie from any prospective woman the last place i’d want to take her is home where my retired mother lives.

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milestone – leaving “the show”

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guess what i found today among the junk i need to throw away in my bedroom? at “the show” i wore a number of hats one of them was as an usher who sat theater guests. so i had a seating schedule from the very last night that i worke there.

dear white people – ouija – the equalizer – john wick – st. vincent – gone girl. they were all movies that were showing that night and from this night i was leaving the theater business for the time being. it was a somewhat interesting night that proved to be a milestone and i was pessimistic this day would come. it finally did!

a few of the managers wished me a good luck even if in some cases they had to be prodded. some of the “foes” didn’t say much, probably didn’t know i was leaving if not outright indifferent. many of the managers couldn’t believe – even if some had relatively rough relations with me – i was leaving them.

trust me it was past time. i emphasize that at “the show” i was never paid more than minimum wage – which was then $8.25/hr – and no benefits. while i got less hours from – you know let’s give them a name – “gotham bank” my pay went up to $11.50/hr and eligible for benefits in 90 days. the great period of frustration was about to end and it was time to start a new chapter.

to set up this period of time during the course of that particular week i was doing some training in downtown chicago at an office for “gotham bank“. it made it somewhat easier to come down and work my last few days at “the show”. they were all shifts that started at 8:30 AM to about 5:00 PM. as it turned out this was the easiest part of the new job.

i told one of the supervisors to find me on fb using an e-mail address. i shook hands with a colleague, a security guard who i got to know, and one of the senior managers. another supervisor came out with best wishes unexpectedly, she likely didn’t know i was leaving someone probably told her that night. i got a courtesy cup of water got my things and out of the door i went. i was hearing a tune from the butler as i walking from the theater for the last time as an associate.

i feel as if this is something to frame. this was my last night there and after that i wasn’t coming back to work. i was already talking about skipping my last schedule day there because during the time i had been scheduled i was still doing the training at the “gotham bank” office. a bit of a conflict though now that this was about the end of my two-week period it didn’t matter.

one era ends a new one starts and that means off to new adventures starting with the bank.

 

changes

our dept. manager left over the weekend. he already announced he was leaving the company. one of the assistant managers told me quietly that he applied to a job at another store in another department. we found out recently that he got it….

at one point in our dept. we had five assistant managers. our original manager left to become an assistant store manager at another store. one of the assistants – who opened with us moved on to california at another store and in a different dept. one of the other assistants became the new dept. manager.

another one who got promoted to two roles while there ultimately becoming one of the five assistant managers became a dept. manager at another store. and the changes aren’t ending there our acting dept. manager is planning to move in the near future so she won’t be there much longer either.

in other words, we got a changing dept after over two years. i don’t feel stagnant as of now since i’ve learned other stations so i need to work with the manager i do have right now. as long as i can still make money and continue to grow in that dept i’m not doing too bad. now i should consider what else i can do to expand my skills.

while i may view this with concern, perhaps i shouldn’t yet. time will tell if i have no choice but to make my own changes. unlike at “the show”, i had barely a path because i narrowed it.

if i wasn’t growing as a box office, concessionist, or usher i could go to the restaurant. i had little interest in being a server or a bartender. perhaps i could be a busser or a host – i had a joke a male host would be called a male hostess lol. i had little interest in working the kitchen. and yes i wanted to become a supervisor ultimately, but what had i shown them and would it have mattered if i did.

interestingly i kept making jokes about the old job, about the show at work one night. and one of the supervisors asked point blank what we could do to keep up morale. it’s very important now more than ever.

i joked about how if morale is in the tank find ways to make people far more miserable. talk as much shit to them as possible when they start complaining. don’t make any changes, play favorites. generally just keep people on edge.

so he asked point blank and i gave him some pointers. don’t just beat people upside the head with rules changes. make expectations clear. then i came up with since we may not have “leaders” in our dept for a minute. let the leaders emerge.

there was a posting in the back for the customer service department to have regular employees work the front desk. and this position could lead at some point or ultimately provide training for a customer service supervisor. perhaps at this critical time this department could do the same thing. have a point for our critical areas. perhaps that’s one idea that will carry forward until we have our new boss.

the idea wouldn’t be to give them the responsibility without giving them the compensation. it would be to give them the responsibility so that they would be ready to take on the new role of supervisor. something to consider at this time, hopefully.

updates

on a sunday i had just gotten home from work my aunt paid us a visit shortly before i got off work. just before i got settled my mother wanted me to go put some trash out so i went ahead and did it because she said it was leaking. before i got out of the house i made sure to put the trash in another garbage bag and took it out.

then after i get back in and expected to settle in for the night, my mother bellows from the kitchen with her sister that she wanted me to go back out and get her some more water from the car. talk about terrible timing as she knew i just got back in and she expected me to go back out to the garage.

i don’t know how she became funny about water. i bought two gallon jugs of water, then almost a whole case of bottled water from the car on another day, and then she wanted me to buy more Dasani waters. so on that occassion she wanted me to get the dasani that was still in the car in the garage. that irritated me and let her know i just came from outside, i’m sure she knew i didn’t like that unfortunately her process isn’t on the same time as my own. i hated making two trip like that and unnecessarily. i’ve begun to learn that she’s awful with timing…

speaking of bad timing my mother is on leave from her current job and unfortunately in something of a hostil takeover her company was taken over by another. the processes of this company is different that the one they took over and as a result this company immediately cancelled the insurance plans of their new employees. my mother is scrambling to find out how she’s going to pay for the doctor we’ve been having a nurse come over at first to administer iv fluid now it’s to clean out the portal which is now coming out soon. still just more drama at this point and my mother is still not at the point where she will be able to return to work.

my mother since she returned from the hospital has largely been bereft of energy. the treatment she had to go through in december to further treat her compound fracture had taken its toll. her immune system got depressed with this treatment. taking out bone marrow and replacing some blood plasma without a doubt is a traumatic treatment. plus she really hasn’t been able to eat a lot of food just doesn’t have a healthy appetitte right now although she’s always been something of a nibbler it’s just worse now than ever.

the prolonged job hunt

i wrote about the first interview i had to kick off the two year long job hunt. often i make it seem like there were a lot of interviews and there weren’t. the reality is that there were a few more no’s than i had expected.

it all started with the small chain movie theater that i wrote about over the summer where i interviewed to be a manager. my disappointment and dwelling on that situation. the dwelling made easier because after an interview i kept getting NO job offers…

after the theater manager position fell through the next interview was for a bank teller at a major bank. really it was a phone interview and i felt as if this was an OK interview this was a no.

the next interview was for a major movie theater chain. another OK interview even though in 20/20 hindsight perhaps i turned my interviewers off. as much as i hoped this would end an emerging drought and after an attempt to follow up this was a no!

that would be my last interview until the end of the summer. there were other phone calls from employers and i sent applications. even took a test for the local transit authority but i never connected with them ultimately. as i continued working at “the show” i was getting nothing for my troubles.

there were some people i worked with who stupidly speculated that i wasn’t leaving. my friend anthony was even getting worried that i wasn’t getting any interviews and others had been. he was measuring my lack of success to others who were getting some success. and he attempted to give me some leads that i never pursued because i hadn’t been that interested to be honest.

then by that fall i got two interviews quick. another phone interview for an electronics store and that was a no. i was contradictory in that i apparently applied for an overnight stock position. wasn’t keen on that so it didn’t happen.

the next interview was for another retail store in downtown chicago. i had to go through a phone screen, a phone interview, and finally an interview at the store. all that and by the time of the in-store interview i was speaking with two young women who seemed neutral. hoping for the best this added to the no’s that was beginning to rack up!

my last interview that year was for a major movie theater chain. unfortunately while hoping for the best the interviewers were again neutral and i never heard from them again. i was at the point where i needed a way out from “the show” and the search got prolonged.

so how many was that. management, bank, theater, electronics, retail, theater so six total in the years 2012 and 2013. things would heat up in 2014 and by that fall i got a job offer!

i had one interview with a grocery chain that was expanding and opening new stores in the chicago area. the person who interviewed me again had been neutral and probably didn’t understand what i had applied for. this was where i went through some steps to score an in person interview. unfortunately never heard from them again.

then my friend anthony arranged for me to speak to a manager at another one of his jobs at a retail store which i quickly took advantage of. got screened and even though anthony said i will definitely hear from them i never got a phone call from them and the screen honesty ended suddenly as if that manager realized he wasn’t interested.

then suddenly i started getting interest from banks. the worst interview was with a local bank that where i had a family connection as a close relative had a management position at the bank. they sent me to a bank across the city to interview unfortunately an early morning and it took some time to get there. enough time where i made sure to call to not make my relative look bad. the interviewer still found a way to give me shit for it indicating that they weren’t impressed because i came late for interview. i never heard from that person again.

btw, not very important but i learned the interviewer had been let go….wtf???

anyway the other interviews were for national bank companies. as far as those go i went 1 for 5 at this point. i did get a job at a bank although not anywhere near downtown as i hoped i would. i would be in the neighborhood not too far from home.

the last interview was for a management position at a major theater chain. a huge surprise and gave me some confidence although i didn’t get it. perhaps i didn’t speak the language of the two general managers i interviewed with. so while i struggled at the bank i still fantasized about getting that position even though it wasn’t going to happen.

so in 2014 how many interviews six banks, one each for grocery, retail, and theater. So nine more interviews for a grand total of 15 actual interviews or screens. I did get other phone calls but they don’t count because they didn’t result in interviews. although there were some interesting stories with some of them.

either way even if it took me a few months after leaving “the show” to find my groove i finally did and happily.

 

october 2014 more changes

two years ago i request off some days for the weekend at “the show”. the intention was to do my collegiate homecoming. then i had two interviews early in the month which mean i had to delay my dental procedure a week or two. that meant i couldn’t go back to see my alma mater in georgia that year for one weekend.

i had two interviews in october 2014 one at a bank and another at a movie theater. the bank hired me and i decided it was time to leave the show. not sure how long it took me to bang out a two-week notice, but it was what i decided to do then. it was right as why should i stay somewhere i had been unhappy.

in the meanwhile during my time off i could get those ugly front teeth pulled and get a flipper installed. that means when i arrive at my new job i will have new teeth. also the folks at “the show”, when i return will also see my new teeth.

like i said, this month two years ago was the start of some changes in my life. new job and a new look and then some when 2015 came around.

of course the year ended not badly but certainly with something of a wimper. that’s ok as i start the year off better than the previous year with another new job.

We have a future…

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Roughly this time last year I had finally quit my job at the cinema. Handed in my two week notice and the last day of it was never scheduled to work. So one night in the last week of October was my last day there, I was scheduled on another day however I didn’t report in. I made sure they knew I wasn’t coming in.

While this may in general mean nothing working at a job for 5 years is more than respectable especially a job with no growth at all as it turns out. Of course try as my mother had 20+ years working in downtown Chicago at a bank. For some of my young coworkers who probably already knew this was a dead end they thought I would still be there.

In fact many of those I considered friends though I was still going to be there. One dumb young lady when I said something about retired thought “retired from here?”. I looked back at her but attempted not to dignify it.

Some of the managers that I had tense relations with during my time there even wondered about where I was going. The fact that I was leaving and perhaps the coworkers I never got a long with probably had this stupid look on their faces when they found out I was leaving them behind for something better.

One evening one of my coworkers at the current job decided to make a joke about him working his last week. He says people were shocked when he said that until he revealed it was a gag. His explanation was that they don’t think of him having a future beyond this job.

When he told me this I told him about what was said about me. Many people thought I was going to still be at the cinema and then I left. At the very least though there were people in my corner rooting for me to finally make the change necessary. And the change happened.

What that means is that regardless we have a future…we all do!

Ahhhh forgot to also note that a few months after i put in my notice many of my ex-coworkers had the burning question. How did I quit? One outright thought that due to my then hatred of that place that I put my worst language to paper and turned that in. Didn’t happen thankfully and you know what who knows what would come of the future. It’s possible that I could return…