NOTE: I had published this post and then edited it because there was a video here that aptly highlighted my feelings as far as my love life. Unfortunately that YouTube channel mentioned in the rest of this post has been deleted. Perhaps I’ll find that video and post it later, meanwhile after publishing this post and realizing video wasn’t available had to take it down right quick and then edit this post. An earlier video posted here on this channel therefore no longer works as well, shame. In some parts of the internet free speech doesn’t rule anymore. 😦
I’ve been doing some research on “mgtow” or men going their own way for a while since posting that video in december about those single professional women from a YouTube channel mgtow 101. My observation is that many of those men who go their own way have at some point actually been burned by women and this is not something I can safely say. To further clarify perhaps they were burned by women they were in relationships with at some point in their lives.
In my case all I can say is the women who I’ve liked had rejected me with a case in point with Nicole. For the most part my story has often been I’m too slow to make my move and only opens the door to other men to swiftly come & get her. It happens unfortunately though there are other factors that truly lie within self.
As for why I’m interested, I’ve been “mgtow” all my life. I never chased women with very few exceptions, and there have been opportunities that I never took up. Only recently have I got myself into a position where I can do as much focus on self as possible. Still “mgtow” offers something that perhaps I wasn’t getting.
If you remember Anthony, he takes great stock in my hooking up. He really wants me to have some female companionship. When he gets to thinking about nothing else I do in life is worth it if there is no companion in my life. My theory is, he’s lonely himself and often on the prowl but in reality other than his own progeny, there really isn’t a companion in his life. Well there are pics of women he claims to have f***ed, but then to be honest I don’t want to hear it.
All the same, I often stated how once upon a time my virginity was a choice. I didn’t want to have sex until marriage and didn’t want children until marriage. This wasn’t entirely a religious conviction, but certainly something that felt right to me at one point in time. The only caveat is that I never dared to get to know some of the ladies back in high school or college.
Conversely women fought to not have their worth attached to that of a man. And while I also see some aspects of “mgtow” swears off any relationships with women, I generally won’t go that far. If the right woman comes along who suits me best and my mindset is where it needs to be, believe me I’m game.
As of now, my goal just has to be continuing to work on self. If a woman notices not that I’m a hard worker, but that i have some qualities that she’s looking for then I hope to be that man. Perhaps I’ll have that direction she wants to see, perhaps she sees that I want something out of life and wants to be part of it.
Meanwhile anyone who only wants to see me get out there and chase p***y just to say I’ve had a woman are themselves deluded. They seem to have a warped idea of what they want out of life and while it’s OK to live women and want to get with them, they surely want more out of life than attend to the whims of a woman. My goal was never sex even back in the day, I wanted something from a woman it was certainly a connection that sadly I never got. Perhaps it was because I never tried, perhaps my expectations were much more than observing from many of the women I interacted with back in the day.
Meanwhile my strategy as of now is to go my own way. Find the activities and hobbies I enjoy doing and perhaps that woman will emerge who suits me best.