milestone – leaving “the show”

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guess what i found today among the junk i need to throw away in my bedroom? at “the show” i wore a number of hats one of them was as an usher who sat theater guests. so i had a seating schedule from the very last night that i worke there.

dear white people – ouija – the equalizer – john wick – st. vincent – gone girl. they were all movies that were showing that night and from this night i was leaving the theater business for the time being. it was a somewhat interesting night that proved to be a milestone and i was pessimistic this day would come. it finally did!

a few of the managers wished me a good luck even if in some cases they had to be prodded. some of the “foes” didn’t say much, probably didn’t know i was leaving if not outright indifferent. many of the managers couldn’t believe – even if some had relatively rough relations with me – i was leaving them.

trust me it was past time. i emphasize that at “the show” i was never paid more than minimum wage – which was then $8.25/hr – and no benefits. while i got less hours from – you know let’s give them a name – “gotham bank” my pay went up to $11.50/hr and eligible for benefits in 90 days. the great period of frustration was about to end and it was time to start a new chapter.

to set up this period of time during the course of that particular week i was doing some training in downtown chicago at an office for “gotham bank“. it made it somewhat easier to come down and work my last few days at “the show”. they were all shifts that started at 8:30 AM to about 5:00 PM. as it turned out this was the easiest part of the new job.

i told one of the supervisors to find me on fb using an e-mail address. i shook hands with a colleague, a security guard who i got to know, and one of the senior managers. another supervisor came out with best wishes unexpectedly, she likely didn’t know i was leaving someone probably told her that night. i got a courtesy cup of water got my things and out of the door i went. i was hearing a tune from the butler as i walking from the theater for the last time as an associate.

i feel as if this is something to frame. this was my last night there and after that i wasn’t coming back to work. i was already talking about skipping my last schedule day there because during the time i had been scheduled i was still doing the training at the “gotham bank” office. a bit of a conflict though now that this was about the end of my two-week period it didn’t matter.

one era ends a new one starts and that means off to new adventures starting with the bank.

 

Life without porn

Sat on this video for a while, time to give it some sunlight. Posted about my experiences with porn here. Perhaps this skit you see summarizes my success with women. In this case perhaps one reason I’ve never had sex, if someone likes me I either fail to pick up on the cues or I miss out by not making a move.

 

holiday season 2012

 

a very bizarre and bad year was finally ending. some conflicts really came up during the course of the year with a number of young women and a really unhinged crazy older guy. the young women only know their motives maybe they were trying to score some points or maybe it was just their natural inclination to cause conflict and drama. don’t know but 2012 seemed to be a year that attracted those types and they made their moves.

many of them didn’t last the whole year some quit probably tired of the job probably found other opportunities and some got fired. they scored their points and really got nothing for it and moved on. still their effects are still with me to this day even if i never have to see or speak to them ever again.

the older guy was a nutcase who often advertised at least with me his social media video channel. what i saw i didn’t like and unprofessionally began share that non-sense because he kind of irritated me and also found a way to score some social points on me. he had me somewhat confused and upset, but he being who he is still wasn’t in with anyone at the job. however, because of his mentality people actually thought him scary and i was the only one who messed with him.

one problem, i couldn’t always break through to him. my actions which i deeply regret today were to just be outright mean to him because while i tried to be indifferent to him he still like to try to have a conversation with me. i simply wasn’t going for it and he never immediately picked up on it. when i publicly went after him at work it was a show, but it only made him relevant. it also didn’t help when it was often instigated by a mischievous coworker and sometimes i started it regardless it helped me decide that i had everything to lose while he had nothing to gain or lose.

with that episode that is now my conclusion, this lonely and very deranged man was looking for relevance. he behaved like an internet troll and although i knew who he was i gave him the attention he needed. i should’ve just not fed the troll.

for going after him i was rewarded with a number of social media videos that has him mention my name. one got him fired by the end of the summer because he portrayed a superhero who cuts off my head. this is what a deranged person does and it took me going off on him one last time before he got fired and i was the subject of many other videos after that.

to be honest i took me a while to cool off from this. even worse people were wondering why i kept talking about it. they were right i should’ve shut up about it, but i wasn’t smart back then. in fact i would set this as a sign of clear frustration with my role at “the show” and finding myself taking it out on people i worked with. a pattern that didn’t change until i finally left.

also, i may add that those who wanted to look down on me as a person found nothing but excuses. the feud with mr. deranged may have knocked me down a peg in some peoples eyes no matter how i justified it. but there are other reasons but only the ones who engaged in their behaviors towards me know for sure.

this was why i really was looking forward to the management interview i had for a small theater chain. it would’ve been an escape and the interview went well but it wasn’t meant to be. on the surface my time at a premier downtown movie theater with no management experience made it easy for the owner i met with to cut me out of the process.

while it hurt and i dwelled on it for the next two years there were some other issues at play with that company. know that as it unfolded back then it should’ve dulled the pain a little bit during that difficult period of time.

also the house manager – the number 2 guy at the show – decided to “pinch” me for being late. the guy was a dick to be honest and promised to write me up the next day for my excessive tardies, he never did. and because i didn’t like his plan and how he decided to talk so tough I gave an attitude and he also decided to find things to pick about.

by the end of the year i had an interview with a bank that didn’t pan out. i don’t think i gave it my all when it came to a phone screen. but then i figured in the new year there will be other opportunities to find another job. by the end of 2012 there was still no immediate escape for me.

so the one escape i took near the holidays of that year was that i went to another downtown theater in a span of a week i saw two movies. i saw skyfall – james bond – which was something i was looking forward to. then i saw lincoln which was a biopic about abraham lincoln’s legislative campaign to free the slaves. to be honest i nodded off during the early part of that film and that theater was paaacked people really came out for this movie on new years eve.

that spring i paid my first visit there just to check out it – the movie was this means war. a coworker had worked there and said he was fired though he never said what he was fired for. i just decided to check out this facility and it was nice and different. seemingly “the show” seemed somewhat bland in comparison although it had an urban feel to it. the newest hip place to catch a movie compared to this other facility which had been open almost 10 years but still looked great.

to be honest i just wanted to make some comparisons and later on it was to determine if this was somewhere i wanted to work. the theater by my house i saw how they did things then i saw how this other theater did things. then compared that with “the show” just to observe mostly and of course catch a movie.

this established a pattern that lasted until i finally quit the business in fall 2014. instead of taking advantage of free movie tickets i chose to go to another theater to catch a movie. i just saw no reason to catch a show at a place i was finding myself largely at odds with. so when i left this place and had to go back to work at “the show” it was back to reality.

either way after the holidays and after several disappointments with my beginning job search i had to deal with a little more frustration for the next year and 10 months…

the scene

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the scene i want to show starts with me going to my interview heading into offices that appear to be closed as it’s after hours. until i find someone to ask about my interview. then we quickly flashback literally to the day before.

the day before i had gotten fired from the bank. no dialogue other than one of the branch managers saying “Jack, can I have one word with you?”

then all the principals of this scene go into an office where the door closes and then we go back forward to the next day. it’s after hours and i’m about to have an interview. a little nervous because i feared that i may have lost the job before i got it. ah well.

questions for the interview of course there are questions about experience. also questions about my hobbies and what are my passions. questions about my view of what the company is about and what they offer. in addition we talk movie theaters as that’s where most of my background is. just some points to write-in dialogue. what you should get from this is that the interview was a success as it turns out.

only thing is….it’s ambiguous as well we won’t see the hiring. we just see the smiles, the handshake, and then perhaps a security guard saying you got the job – a gut feeling. and then based on the notion of they want me to interview with other people.

in the meanwhile we flashback to the bank branch. i was walking from the facility for the last time. you see the virgin walking away from the inside not looking back.

a bad ending and a new beginning. sometimes i really enjoy thinking about that instead of the negative things. it’s something i hope to share in a video form one day.

script

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quite a while ago i toyed with the idea of doing a feature length film about a mid-30s virgin. we start at the movie theater where the virgin – really yours truly – was actually a 30ish virgin. we go through some odd drama involving many of the young women i worked with. why them because over time they gave me the most problems and there was little difference over the issues they’d start drama over.

so then i go from the movie theater after showing my two-week notice to my current job in retail. though there is a flashback to my ill-fated attempt to get into the finance sector. the flashback occurs during presumably my interview with my current manager.

and as stated the ending ought to be that mid-30s virgin losing his virginity. of course that has to be written or more accurately experienced.

all the same my focus would be the job after the firing at the bank. it could be a segment that could last 10-20 minutes. for the flashback perhaps there is some dialogue but hopefully actions convey that someone is going to lose their job. the interview however is untainted by those events that occurred in reality the day before.

perhaps we start off with me entering an office building for this interview i see the offices where interview will take place is closed. i’m standing around like what the heck until the person i have an interview with comes out to use the jon and i had little idea until he says he’ll check it out.

of course the problem how do i fit in the flashbacks before the interview or during it. and what artistic reason should i convey these flashbacks. that i’ve yet to figure out and yet i can see clearly in my head both parts of this story.

you know this could make a very interesting video if i find a good group of people together especially a good writer who can do a screenplay. lol

btw, the music for this story should be from the “inception” soundtrack. i’m truly a fan of that movie and very much of the soundtrack. this is not an action packed science fiction movie about invading someone’s dreams, but for what i hope to do the music would be perfect for what i as a writer hope to convey.

this gives me the idea to do a mid 30’s virgin musical playlist. it proves to be somewhat interesting with odd selections. perhaps answers the question of what types of music i’m into.

glossary

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just for fun, i’ve decided to create a glossary. it’s only waiting to be published in the near future but just to help keep track of the terms i used or even the assumed names. i could include in it the liberal arts college i attended at one point and the all-girls college right next to it.

only thing that stumps me so far are the two theatres where i have worked. i really need a new name for the so called “sh*tplace” because i really want to go along the lines of positivity. it was an appropriate moniker for so long and it’s really time to move on. it’s very important to move on.

i could also discuss the assumed names for the many women i’ve met and even for some relatives that i’ve mentioned on this blog. now what i will say for that is how i arrived at these names are very random and have little meaning. the names used firt  that particular woman at that particular time.

it’s a fun exercise and hopefully will enable you to follow along with the various stories i have told on this blog. haven’t decided whether or not links should be included.

also if you have a new name for the place i formerly worked – the movie theater – then feel free to suggest one for me. a more positive one and part of me wants to use some semblance of it’s real name, but this is an anonymous blog and it’s not very important for me to be very specific.

movies

I worked at a theater for several years and again picked up a part-time job in that business in addition to another full-time job so why not outline a movie about a mid-30s male virgin. Not sure how compelling a story could be told hopefully it could be both drama or comedy. Hell lets throw in the theme for “Curb Your Enthusiasm” as incidental music.

This film can be inspired by “Don Jon”. It’s a movie about a man who loves women has encounters but can’t let go of porn. This is a young guy who has to start dating a cougar to realize he’s addicted to porn and he’s not satisfied with the women in his life.

The drama and stupidity – whether of my own making or from anyone else – at the movie theater I used to be employed with could factor. There are several incidents that either involved me or otherwise that could be a plot line in the film. Hell I can always throw that poor girl Candace into the fold.

The bank I can always tell as a flashback but lets say we end the story of the theater with me leaving for the last time. Then we may pick up with me at my new job and then flashback to my firing from the bank. The flashback would probably just involve handshakes, a closed door to an office, and then an indoor shot of me outside walking out of the branch.

Perhaps we pick up my time at the current job – perhaps my orientation period – before we flash back. In my new role I’m unsure of myself until I gradually learn the new job. Better yet me getting ready for this interview exactly the day after firing. And there will be flashbacks to the day before.

Of course the ending of this film is up to me. It could end with me and the girl finally having sex or in a relationship and on my way to living the life that I want. And that life should involve a girl.

Think of this as a three act play, similar to “Steve Jobs”. The beginning is the low point – as the writer and the person who lived it this is exactly what it was. The middle is the beginning of the recovery. Then the final act is merely taking shape things start moving in the right direction towards the end.

I really would like to live that movie and find a way to share it in the near future. When you think about it, this seems like an art-house film that could either be a cult-classic or a forgotten work that could only be discovered by film buffs years later.