Breaking News

I just found out over the weekend that Roger – who was my last boss at “Fresh Foods” when I got let go – is no longer with the company. I’m hearing some conflicting things regarding what happened. Either way he’s no longer there and one of the former assistant managers for my dept who we’ll dub Larry is returning to take over the dept. Also this makes it easier for me to try to return as I was in no rush to return to that dept under someone I’d dub Ruthless Roger.

In a post on FB, one of my former colleagues noted that Larry is coming back to be the dept. mgr. I sent her a private msg and she let me know that R.R. had been demoted and gave a two-week notice, however, he left before his notice was up. Of course to write it in short hand R.R. got demoted and then he essentially quit the company. I didn’t ask for more details the music to my ears was that he’s not there anymore. I made sure to note to her; now that he’s gone I shall return.

Speaking of this former coworker, I was supposed to work with her the next day after firing. I had sent her a FB msg that evening letting her know that I wouldn’t be joining her and why. Let her know R.R. was a goofball to which she agreed and referred to him as a puppet. Then gave her a prediction basically was going on in the dept at the time that I didn’t think he was going to last long and erroneously I gave him about 6 mos to crash and burn. Which could be roughly the time I had before being rehired.

Basically my prediction was also based on the idea that store mgmt would see what was going on in the dept especially low morale and they would take action. Realize that R.R. really wasn’t working out for our dept which had been a strong one until recently. So being demoted seemed to have been a sign that he was finally pushed out by his bosses. However on this, not so fast…

Later I had also gotten in touch with one of my former supervisors at “Fresh Foods”. While my main goal was to talk to either Larry or store mgmt about me coming back, we also discussed what happened to R.R. If you will an alternate version of events as stated by my former colleague. He couldn’t confirm nor deny whether or not he got demoted, however, his account was that he never put in his two weeks. So basically he just upped and quit with store mgmt upset with him because he left his position. It was said that the dept was doing great with him in charge. So now it could also be a case of he began to realize this position wasn’t the right fit for him.

Though on the one hand his changes and his need to be by the book probably somewhat caused many in the dept to have somewhat low morale including yours truly. I also learned from the supervisor that R.R. seemed to hate his job and wouldn’t admit it. While the dept was beginning to suffer some staffing issues with firings or even people who quit – some of which were likely initiated by R.R. – he apparently liked to leave work early. This while he often asked associates if they could stay extra time because we were at one point short-staffed.

Either way, I’m making plans to return for sure now and already filed some applications online. I know that I have some difficult questions to answer regarding my attendance. I heard from my former supervisor someone else who was let go based on attendance came back. Who knows if store mgmt went over R.R.’s head to bring that particular individual back and perhaps part of the drastic choice he made to quit.

I don’t plan into delving into this anymore because there’s just hearsay and I seemed to have the thirst to acquire knowledge of whatever drama there is (or perhaps there isn’t much drama here). At this point his sudden departure makes it possible for me to return in the near future. And I need not have the consideration that – and it was at hinted when store mgmt let me go – they could possibly hire me over R.R.’s head. Now it’s Larry who I’ve worked with for almost two years so things might return to some type of normal as they were before Roger arrived.

While I somewhat accept that my firing was based on the situation I found myself in. Things built up until I was in a situation where R.R. was strictly by the book, found myself late thanks to a train that fell behind schedule due to a passenger issue, and basically it was manager’s choice. I fell into the category of manager’s choice and they made a call that didn’t go my way. I’m not concerned who made what call exactly what I figured happened was that R.R. punted the ball so to speak to store mgmt and they followed their procedures and chances are that’s where it went. Although in spite of the fact of the tardies, they lauded me as a good worker. Hell they even counted the points because I did what I could to not be late again and I was close to beating that probationary action.

So anyway I need to look at this as water under the bridge. It always flows downriver to another body of water and it’s time to not worry about the past. As of now while I’m eligible to re-apply in 6 mos which would be up in April, the bottom line is I want to return to work right now! Hopefully yours truly can say that he’s back at “Fresh Foods”.

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job hunting

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the “apocalypse era” meets the “streak era“. man what a depressing era working a job i was beginning not to like anymore and looking for a job with no results for a good period of time. changed strategies, moved too slow on some opportunities, had people putting pressure on me (i.e. anthony), then crazy coworkers at the job, had interviews though no job, had anthony help me with leads get interviews no job or no interview. then it ends with a job that didn’t start off very well and lost my job only to find another one where i lasted far longer.

had some bites and no job so far – even decided to apply to my friend anthony’s favored employer “finer foods” with no bites. had interviews with the national theater chain – especially the “dine-in show” with no bites. which also lets me know i need to put myself in a better interviewing mindset. btw, i never told anthony – my imperious martial artist friend i met at “the show” – that i’m out of work and don’t want him to start campaigning for his favored outcomes which may not be in MY best interest.

my mother suggested it’s OK to try “the show” again. while i attempt to give out the idea of how uninterested i am in that possibility, i have thought about it on occasion before my current situation. in the last few years i know some things have changed, many of the managers i knew back then have left for other opportunities. the coworkers i knew by the time i left have also moved – and yes that includes people i worked well with as well as the troublemakers. i recognized that there have been many new things occuring at “the show” since my very last shift there..

all the same, the thought has crossed my mind only to be nixed by the idea that my price has gone up. some of the managers i knew from my time – especially if they’re senior managers – are still up there. while i know who i may target if i seek to “negotiate” my return, i often get the feeling that my price could be seen as too high. that price may not necessarily be only money, just that some of what happened back during my time i’m not going to let happen again. i’m not too scared to seek other opportunities if i don’t like where i’m at.

that said, i see this only as a desperation move. at what point do i find that i have no other options but to try to return to “the show”? and for me to go back there at what point would it even be worth returning? of course i have to consider is it worth it for the managers who know me to summon my return. hopefully these aren’t questions i won’t seek to have answered as of now.

on the other hand, this is the apocalypse era. my mother isn’t working anymore – she wants to go back to work but it won’t be a full-time job as she had for most of her adult life. she’s not in a position to do some of the things she had been doing for me. it becomes a case of do what i must do to earn a living for myself.

that means if you’ve been a hot shot executive (well I wasn’t actually) and you get laid off perhaps you may not find a comparable job – what do you do? do you accept a lesser position? do you accept a “mcjob”? do you try your hand at being a bank teller? do you accept a sales job? in my case and i dread this is to go back to a job where for the most part i had a largely awful experience as time went on.

btw, i did humble up and try college bookstores though no bites with that either. for the most part the semester has started at chicago-area local universities so thus perhaps i won’t hear anything yet. for the moment all i can do it continue plugging away

best case scenario i’m back at a “fresh foods” store though not necessarily where i had been working for three years. the main change will be greater attention to my attendance and hopefully get myself in a better position when i return. like i said the easiest resolution to fulfill in 2018 is to find another job. be worried if it’s about to be 2019 and i still haven’t found anything.

rough

probably should’ve written this before the new year but eh.

2017 was rough my mother lost her job after being out of action due to her health issues from the previous year. she was still at home recovering on medical leave when the company she worked for had been taken over by government regulators. and the worst part about this is that the insurance she had been dependent upon was cancelled by the new owners of her company.

then later i lost my job in a somewhat similar fashion. there was no takeover by regulators just a new boss whom i wasn’t feeling and the lates started racking up to the point where i found myself on an attendance probation and on an awful day where i ran late they let me go two days after that. i lost my job but i was getting the sense that the department was beginning to deteriorate though at this point i’m glad that i could return as some point in the future. just think i’m almost halfway there to returning.

also i didn’t go anywhere last year. the year before i took an amtrak train to a family reunion. another year i made an appearance at “mission college” for homecoming. a worthwhile quick jaunt. i said this year my goal is to find somewhere to go and likely without family around which will be determined by whether or not i can find a position.

near the end of last year i had several opportunities to go back to work and didn’t get any of them. two of them are with a national theater chain which i saw as short term until possible returning to “fresh foods”. one interview was awful the other probably marred by an indifferent interviewer whom i had some difficulty reading.

the beauty of 2018 is that there is no where else for me to go but up this year. like i said at the end of 2017, i think finding another job will be an easy goal to achieve. hopefully it won’t be drawn out as it had been before leaving “the show” in 2014. meanwhile, my mother has no job and while she’s healthier than she was in 2016, i still have to remember that she’s still a senior citizen.

in the meanwhile, i had begun to forget about the current era i have arrived in. while i was working i feel as if i can handle this newly christened “apocalypse era”. at this moment with a job, i have fight a little harder than ever.

change

i used to say you can find yourself in a good situation and you can always lose it. you say that thinking it braces you from the impact of what happens, and then it happens. in this case losing your job which happened to me recently at “fresh foods”.

perhaps i believe i’m more than capable of handling any problem as you see from the body of work on this blog, it’s not always true. in this case i couldn’t handle the new situation at work, a new manager with a new team. i didn’t trust them and they didn’t keep me from losing my job.

in writing this post i could talk about the grumbling from some of my now former coworkers. i can take it with a grain of salt now or perhaps not because it cost me my job. perhaps i was starting to be a grumbler as i had been at “the show”. when things aren’t going well i can be a grumbler just complain and get in the drama though in this case it’s not little teeny-bopper drama because I don’t know any better.

today on the train i ran into one of my former colleagues at “fresh foods” and without telling him what happened with me i asked him how’s it going up there. my expectation – genuinely perhaps some positive changes – he simply said “same old bullshi*t”. the new regime hasn’t changed yet, the situation hasn’t settled down though he hopes it does for the best – to which i simply crossed my fingers and hoped for the best with him.

what i told him when he mentioned the B.S. is “this is why i’m gone!” though i wanted to emphasize that i had the best job of my life and i blew it. in doing my best to adjust to a difficult situation i still didn’t do my best to adjust to it. i was just another worker at the end of the day that mgmt had to let go. they were right i did place myself into that situation getting onto an attendance probation where i couldn’t be late for six months and it just had to be one more time – which was out of my hands.

i asked my former colleague about my replacement on receiving another colleague who wanted to learn about buying. my former colleague said he’s still doing receiving though they have him back and forth between the sales floor schedule-wise. supposedly he was supposed to have been given a raise – just as i hoped to get the position of receiver and just like me – he evidently didn’t get it. the new boss who i’ll call roger didn’t pull through and my colleague who’s a math nerd and a wrestling fan i’m sure told because he can be vocal.

so right now what about yours truly? well i intend to reapply in six months. in light of what happened and how i feel about the new regime because of how it all ended i don’t know if i want to go back to that store assuming things haven’t settled down. it would be ok with me to apply at other stores than the one i had the chance to know. thankfully i’m allowed the opportunity to return…

now i do have my feelings about roger and don’t intend to demonize him. i will say that after perhaps a month of him being the new dept. mgr. i realized that i wasn’t feeling him. perhaps he had the same feeling about me. there’s a reason i don’t trust him and perhaps there’s a reason he doesn’t trust me.

if i couldn’t be on time, it gave him the ammunition. he may well have had a scrutinizing eye which i feel he had towards me at least. i also recognize that as a new mgr he had the right to make some changes and he made them. i could get on board or get out the way and to be sure some of those changes got me in the situation i was in.

perhaps i’ll talk about them more at length. this post had to be about me tonight! there are some lessons i need to learn from this, and I WILL figure it out!

odds & ends

lately my mother had another cook coming around the house of as late. her sister-in-law (my aunt) drops by every now and then to cook. she was already known as a cook. for the most part i stay in the other part of the house as her and my mother are in the kitchen.

with this said i learned something about my father’s side of the family. the reason i talk of my dad and his addiction issues is because the drama on that side of the family caused his issues. and my aunt – we’ll call her nadine – said she had the chance to come to grips with them when they brought their father up to chicago before i was born.

i never met my grandfather as he died before yours truly finally arrived on the scene – here’s some minor trivia my dad is a junior which makes his dad a senior. according to my mother, nadine said she had a talk with her dad and they hashed out some issues. alas not much was said about the convo, however, she came out feeling better whatever was said or whatever was accomplished.

my mother futher told me that my dad was having trouble with school because not only his mother left home when he was 8, she died relatively young – as my dad did years later. in fact nadine was scheduled to graduate on the day her mother passed away unexpectedly! so unfortunately the son could never really reconcile with his mother and i also heard he was about to move with her. because she died it wasn’t going to happen!

the cooking has been excellent, there’s no shortage of cornbread around these parts now. last week we had some salmon patties with potatoes. we’re not short of collard greens with turkey wings and ham hocks. another time we had a cornish hen which lasted us a few days. one time she brought a lemon meringue pie which i never touched because i for whatever reason don’t like pie.

another visitor lately has been one of my mother’s old coworkers from the bank. she also lost her job when the bank was shut down by the feds and sold to another company. she’s been coming over to help clean up the basement and the closets. for the most part i find somewhere to go when she’s here though last friday i stuck around. didn’t really help out unless asked although my mother and i could knock out some of the clean-up. besides i would like to clean up my closet in the future!

finally i have another interview. trying to get back into the movie theater business – not “the show” of course although things might have changed for the better by now who knows. either way my first interview was a bust but i hope to retool try it again and hope to be successful this time around. perhaps do the reverse of what i did the last time.

also i have a post that is locked and am still working on writing it. hopefully it will be fully available in the near future. just trying to tighten some things up with this story, which i will admit will be quite awkward. i’m thinking about doing this sometime after thanksgiving.

there are some other things worth sharing, however, i’ll just wait until next month to tell you this. somethings have changed for me recently, unfortunately it doesn’t involve a woman at the same time these still are some important changes. unexpected though i hope to bear through them at this current time.

meanwhile wish me luck on this interview this week!

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in light of some of the changes at “fresh foods” i applied & interviewed to return to the “dine-in show” that i had upped & quit. i hit a few bumps in the road which included they wanted to know why i left. my basic reason is that i made the determination that i couldn’t be fully available to the job when scheduled. it was basically because of my other job at “fresh foods”.

of course the interviewer tacked this on at the end of my interview before letting me know that he’s still interviewing and will make a decision by 5 PM on friday and this would never hear from them at that time. the interview didn’t go that well for me at that time, i wasn’t that comfortable with it. i didn’t prepare but for an entry level job these were questions that i should’ve been better able to answer.

for example, i need a better answer to the opener “tell me about yourself”. i did mention some aspects of my resume, but made sure to note considering the setting that i like movies. somehow i need to come up with more to answer this question and not seem like a deer in headlines. i also consider that as part of the opener for “fresh foods” almost three years ago the manager i interviewed with took to heart the fact that i like wrestling.

“name a time where you had to interact with someone you didn’t know”. not the first time i ran into that one and it caught me off guard. perhaps it showed and i got quite jittery with this one.

“what do you think the greatest challenge is if you take on this job?” Really? I pulled an answer out of nowhere to tell you the truth. to be honest it made no sense, but i tried to relate this to the job i applied for which was to be a busser at the “dine-in show”.

“are you excited for working for our company?” this i really tried to answer honestly. sometimes i do miss the excitement of a new release the hustle and bustle of the roving crowd. even if i may complain about those customers you can’t please it’s still very exciting. it’s a genuine answer i do miss that.

they did ask about dealing with difficult people you saw an example of that answer above. you realize difficult people have a problem that really hasn’t nothing to do with me or you or anyone. they need to direct that negative energy to someone who directly affected them. in my case i need to let it bounce off of my back – and to be honest with you guys that has been my Achilles heel.

regardless i think even after having one interview in 2016 and two in 2015 (one each for the theater and at “fresh foods” before getting hired at both) i’m out of practice. perhaps i need to get myself into that interview mindset again. if i don’t then on some giveme questions i’ll be caught flatfooted.

btw, since this was the theater i quit immediately from and made sure they knew that i had been an associate there. made sure to note that – when they wanted to know why i left – i made a determination that i wasn’t going to be available for them thanks to the fact that i had another job at the time. hopefully that was enough to satisfy an explanation, especially if i choose to pursue opportunities at other theaters with that company.

as of yet, i still haven’t heard from them. hopefully if i had a better interview then it’s possible how i left the “dine-in show” wouldn’t matter. alas there’s only one way to find out, get another interview and then be determined to perform better. perhaps that interview will be more to my liking. the day of my interview seemed quite hectic a lot of people waiting in the lounge area.

another possibility is that one of the managers at the “dine-in show” now works for the theater i frequent. it’s one place that i’ve been applying for years and once had the chance to become a manager there. now i have an possible in and she recognizes me, thus perhaps i could just broach the subject and see where it goes as far as a job. she’s basically the assistant general manager there last i heard so this may be my way in. and hopefully she might be the one who could overlook any issues i may have as far as how i left the “dine-in”.

we shall see how i approach it, if i feel bold…

October 2014

i think there have been a few other iterations of this post already. one was likely dated similarly to this one and others represent the period after the last two interviews of the “streak era” and my last two weeks at “the show”. so hopefully I’ll do something different here and if not well soon this storyline will be concluded in the next series of posts. perhaps no later than the middle of this month.

anyway, the situation at the show was beginning to somewhat turn. i gotten written up the previous month for taking too long on my break. i just about got into it with a b*tch of a senior manager who decided to bicker with me. she cut it off quick although she was determined to write me up.

i only refer to her that way because in a light moment in an office counting me down and taking to her colleague she came out with her saying “she can be a b*tch”. more often than not especially if some associate wasn’t meeting her expectation that tense side came out and a few times she directed it towards me. although through some intelligence that behavior came out because she found herself frustrated with her role at “the show” also.

anyway the young people were a bit more defiant especially if i try to tell them something. and at worse i may work with one young person who claims they forgot where their register was. and them expecting me to say something gets all upset when i call them out as lazy and wants to start a fight right there! though in reality the tension began the moment i blew them off – a teenage girl of course – when they decided it’s ok to speak to me. anyway no recovery with me there, that potential relationship is shot and good riddance.

i got two interviews this month and it was with a branch of “gotham bank” that hired me and a theater manager position that didn’t hire me. i feel as if i blew the theater manager gig for the national chain. not to say i was unserious but i did get to think about my frustrations and their knowledge of “the show’s” general manager. he wasn’t someone i really worked with often and i couldn’t describe him as a mentor. though as a manager he tried to be as above it all as possible even if some of his senior managers and supervisors just weren’t.

the gotham bank interview actually took place at a different branch from where i would be assigned. good interview where the branch manager got in on the interview and i wish i had worked with them in the long run. while considering the results this was the job that ultimately got me away from the show.

i turned in my notice to one of the senior managers who was the human resource point. i had already been discussing my job search with him anyway. after putting in my notice he gets a thank you card for giving me some “moral” support. other select mgmt i told as appropriate.

ironically two of the more problematic senior managers – the house manager & the b*tch – were incredibly curious about me leaving. more than i had expected them to be and i was semi-suspicious of them. if it was just cordiality for them, deep inside with me i just wanted to tell them to go to hell! although if anyone just wanted me gone it would’ve been them and i mostly worked the last few days of my notice.

btw, this month i fixed my teeth. funny part is that i got a new job with bad teeth and before starting my teller job i arrived at work with new teeth. also i cancelled that initial dental appointment for that procedure to do this interview. i really wanted to leave “the show”.

incidentally having arrived at the new job didn’t start off very well. i kept having issues with my timeliness and that didn’t look good. as time went on it was one thing to get nit-picked over another. it got to the point where i dreaded going to work and while things were bad at “the show”, i never felt the dread as i began to feel about the bank before i was eventually let go.

meanwhile it was registering more and more with some of the mgmt at the show that my time there was coming to an end. thankfully not because someone wanted me gone, but i said i was leaving. i know there were many who wanted yours truly gone and if not mgmt, but other associates. all they did essentially was allow me to find something better.

also my mother bought a new car and for the last time i drove her old vehicle – which remained at a dealer where she left it – to work and back into our garage. i shared a pic of it to my ig page it was the vehicle that ferried me to work when she allowed me to drive there. this was something i was going to miss for sure. the night time drives back home and on occasion meandering about on the way home.

regardless the “streak era” had ended. a new era away from the theater was about to begin. my mother got a new car. i also got new teeth – a flipper – which some of the coworkers noticed the difference especially when i open my big mouth. 😛

as i said my final good byes to some of the coworkers – and even noted this for some of my former colleagues – there was some apprehension as to my new role. it was less than ideal but again the offer i got was what got me away from “the show”. my situation with my coworkers and my pay wasn’t likely to change so this was the impetus for me to leave and finally. no more questions about whether or not i was “too comfortable” or whether or not i was trying to leave. i put in my notice and said BYE to “the show”.

all the same some people were coming out of the woodworks to wish me luck and shake my hand. others it probably didn’t matter too much to them they may know or perhaps for some odd reason glad i was out the door. regardless i worked my final night at the theater shook hands, got my final soft-drink in a courtesy cup, gathered my belongings, and after almost five years off to new adventures!