the check

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i forgot to mention more about depositing money into my accounts on the bank that formerly employed my mother. basically i deposited my tax refund check into both my savings and checking. most of it went to checking so that i could use that to pay my bills mainly credit and student loans.

the remainder went into savings which for the first time ever moved my account past the $10K mark. wow if only i had continued to add money to my account a few years ago when i collected that social security checks – as a result of my dad’s sudden passing – which pushed me past $5k before i even turned 19.

anyway my mother’s ideas are already put some money away in a CD. anthony my oddball friend from “the show” seems keen for me to buy a car. and i’m sure there are some other ideas, but for now I’m keen on continuing saving. and at that as i’m interested in changing banks in the future perhaps evaluate interest rates.

as far as a car if i continue to live at home and work in downtown chicago i’m not sure about the value of a vehicle. i won’t likely drive to work especially if parking could be an issue although it would help me out with my new job situation where i’d have to be at work starting at 5 am everyday. on the other hand this would make it easier for me to come and go as i please. can’t really do this with my mother’s vehicle. for now the jury is out but hopefully i can find something to spend cash and then hopefully get what i really want eventually.

yeah so for the next two weeks at least i’ll be doing more receiving at my store. remember two years ago i left “the show” for a job that would allow growth. i wasn’t growing at the movie theater. some of it was a self-inflicted wound, however, it probably wasn’t meant to be anyway. all the same, if it becomes a permanent job then that means more more and means more money to put away.

also it means more time on my hands. i would get off in the early afternoon – say about 1 pm or so. that could mean doing some moonlighting and it could also mean i could develop a plan B while doing this. and yes moonlighting could mean i could go back to a movie theater in the future and closer to a living salary especially if i can work more hours without losing sleep.

and yes it could also mean more time to meet women available women who hopefully are the ones i can connect with in a meaningful way – yeah whatever that means. perhaps more time to socialize and enjoy my time and develop meaningful hobbies and even connect with people who enjoys them.

with those things in mind some things are changing at my job. as i somewhat failed to do at “the show” the goal now is to get whatever i can get out of my job now. it may mean i have to learn to do receiving or buying and possibly parlay that to another job elsewhere if necessary. as much as i see a future at “fresh foods” it’s also possible that my future may not be there.

my future could be the main fantasy i had while i was struggling with being a bank teller after leaving “the show” becoming a theater manager. something i had two opportunities to accomplish. at the moment i could settle for being a grocery manager – department or store. i could make more money at a grocery store than at a theater. but that’s one path i can take for sure and perhaps the new potential job situation would allow me to accomplish that in some small way.

now i just have to adjust and adapt to the current new reality at work and with life.

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changes

our dept. manager left over the weekend. he already announced he was leaving the company. one of the assistant managers told me quietly that he applied to a job at another store in another department. we found out recently that he got it….

at one point in our dept. we had five assistant managers. our original manager left to become an assistant store manager at another store. one of the assistants – who opened with us moved on to california at another store and in a different dept. one of the other assistants became the new dept. manager.

another one who got promoted to two roles while there ultimately becoming one of the five assistant managers became a dept. manager at another store. and the changes aren’t ending there our acting dept. manager is planning to move in the near future so she won’t be there much longer either.

in other words, we got a changing dept after over two years. i don’t feel stagnant as of now since i’ve learned other stations so i need to work with the manager i do have right now. as long as i can still make money and continue to grow in that dept i’m not doing too bad. now i should consider what else i can do to expand my skills.

while i may view this with concern, perhaps i shouldn’t yet. time will tell if i have no choice but to make my own changes. unlike at “the show”, i had barely a path because i narrowed it.

if i wasn’t growing as a box office, concessionist, or usher i could go to the restaurant. i had little interest in being a server or a bartender. perhaps i could be a busser or a host – i had a joke a male host would be called a male hostess lol. i had little interest in working the kitchen. and yes i wanted to become a supervisor ultimately, but what had i shown them and would it have mattered if i did.

interestingly i kept making jokes about the old job, about the show at work one night. and one of the supervisors asked point blank what we could do to keep up morale. it’s very important now more than ever.

i joked about how if morale is in the tank find ways to make people far more miserable. talk as much shit to them as possible when they start complaining. don’t make any changes, play favorites. generally just keep people on edge.

so he asked point blank and i gave him some pointers. don’t just beat people upside the head with rules changes. make expectations clear. then i came up with since we may not have “leaders” in our dept for a minute. let the leaders emerge.

there was a posting in the back for the customer service department to have regular employees work the front desk. and this position could lead at some point or ultimately provide training for a customer service supervisor. perhaps at this critical time this department could do the same thing. have a point for our critical areas. perhaps that’s one idea that will carry forward until we have our new boss.

the idea wouldn’t be to give them the responsibility without giving them the compensation. it would be to give them the responsibility so that they would be ready to take on the new role of supervisor. something to consider at this time, hopefully.

passage

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is there such a thing as a rite of passage? i talk about work a lot on this blog and unfortunately not enough of having relationships with women. there have been a precious few over the years that i would consider friend in real life not the online version.

either way a coworker and i just talked about women – well she was a female coworker. either way we talk about what a certain segment of women do to enhance themselves although some of it aren’t that appealing. hair weave, colored eye contacts, or make-up. it was a good conversation there are some women who feel as if they need those things to be beautiful when in reality they don’t.

perhaps to finish my right of passage – either a relationship with a woman or just sex – i have to find out what’s most appealing about me. and not have to add anything fake to broaden my appeal. to be sure fake can include what you wear or your personality just as easily. people out there can spot a fake and quick.

anyway i consider the idea of a right of passage. so let’s talk about, i had to go through some changes to find another job finally. not only that find myself at a fortune 500 company – well better yet two fortune 500 companies. eh screw it, it’s actually three fortune 500 companies. it doesn’t matter i had to find the job that offers most of what i think i’m looking for in a job.

well i want to avoid that italicized her because i realized that it’s as much about me as it it about this idealized woman i’m looking for. i realize i have to go through rejections or indifference before i find out who won’t and isn’t indifferent. not only that i have to show that i’m what she’s looking for.

i suppose when you’re serious about a job or a woman you have to show how you can persist. perhaps the right woman wants you to chase her and as for the job well to find a better one you persist until someone says yes. in fact that’s what happened within the last two years with job hunting.

now it think it’s important to determine the life that i want outside of work. and while i’ve talked about the women i’ve connected with on social media – especially the ones who went to a sister college near mine – perhaps as i’ve found a better job i can find the right lady in my life.