milestone – leaving “the show”

600-theaters

guess what i found today among the junk i need to throw away in my bedroom? at “the show” i wore a number of hats one of them was as an usher who sat theater guests. so i had a seating schedule from the very last night that i worke there.

dear white people – ouija – the equalizer – john wick – st. vincent – gone girl. they were all movies that were showing that night and from this night i was leaving the theater business for the time being. it was a somewhat interesting night that proved to be a milestone and i was pessimistic this day would come. it finally did!

a few of the managers wished me a good luck even if in some cases they had to be prodded. some of the “foes” didn’t say much, probably didn’t know i was leaving if not outright indifferent. many of the managers couldn’t believe – even if some had relatively rough relations with me – i was leaving them.

trust me it was past time. i emphasize that at “the show” i was never paid more than minimum wage – which was then $8.25/hr – and no benefits. while i got less hours from – you know let’s give them a name – “gotham bank” my pay went up to $11.50/hr and eligible for benefits in 90 days. the great period of frustration was about to end and it was time to start a new chapter.

to set up this period of time during the course of that particular week i was doing some training in downtown chicago at an office for “gotham bank“. it made it somewhat easier to come down and work my last few days at “the show”. they were all shifts that started at 8:30 AM to about 5:00 PM. as it turned out this was the easiest part of the new job.

i told one of the supervisors to find me on fb using an e-mail address. i shook hands with a colleague, a security guard who i got to know, and one of the senior managers. another supervisor came out with best wishes unexpectedly, she likely didn’t know i was leaving someone probably told her that night. i got a courtesy cup of water got my things and out of the door i went. i was hearing a tune from the butler as i walking from the theater for the last time as an associate.

i feel as if this is something to frame. this was my last night there and after that i wasn’t coming back to work. i was already talking about skipping my last schedule day there because during the time i had been scheduled i was still doing the training at the “gotham bank” office. a bit of a conflict though now that this was about the end of my two-week period it didn’t matter.

one era ends a new one starts and that means off to new adventures starting with the bank.

 

growth

i almost had the opportunity to interview as a “fresh foods” supervisor at my home location and home team. sadly i couldn’t get past the screen gave a relatively vague exampe which i told my manager recently cleaned up some details. the decision was already made and the example was the only one that came to mind quickly enough.

of course i was disappointed, however, i chalked it up as another loss as far as moving up. i won’t count this one only three times have i even gotten a change to interview for a management/supervisor position whether it’s movie theaters or at “fresh foods”. “the show” never would look at me in that way and rarely gave me the opportunity that i will write about here.

my manager approached me about a possible promotion which certainly comes with a pay bump. it will mean that i will likely have to come to work at 5 AM everyday (which certainly would mean less sleep or i have to go to bed earlier). it’s basically a buyer/recieving position and it’s one more step towards management. my presentation for supervisor was weak, but this would look good on paper. especially if i show the aptitude my manager expects with my attention to detail.

heh, funny my attention to detail got me in trouble at the bank. in the intervening time between leaving the show and arriving at “fresh foods” i showed none of it at least to the bank.

while i have a shift to see what i can do in this role next week, i have to wait until one of the department’s buyer/reciever will finally give his two weeks and move on to a new job. so for the moment there is no job for me yet and i remain in my simple clerk role.

as i’ve stated before one reason i left “the show” in 2014 was to find a job where i could grow. i was stagnant there and now where i am i have the opportunities. what it takes is for me to grasp them.

living on my own terms

have i ever lived according to them. it’s been said that most of my life i’ve been trying to have it my way. unfortunately i’ve ran into nothing but people who have decided they know best so they try to tell me what i must do.

when my mother was going for follow-up appointments and had been at the point where she needed me to shuttle her to the hospital i tell her that her need to rush me and tell me to make this light or that light didn’t help. especially if i’m the driver and i may have other things on my mind as much as it’s very important to get her to the clinic for her appointments.

sometimes i’ve been consumed though not enough by the idea that i want to have sex before i turn 40 or better yet married by the time i turn 40. if it happened that i’m happy alas i seem to have a great difficulty getting myself into such a situation where i can make that happen.

unfortunately, i’m a long way from being anything resembling a pick-up artist. i see beautiful women all the time not just online but in person and hell yes they’re my customers. i could pick up a conversation with the one who could be the one. indeed i may also work with such a fabled person.

at the same time i never really lived my life. and i don’t have that long to do it. i never had a group of young friends who were just dating. thus never many opportunities to just hang out and socialize. as likely hinted i’m very much a loaner and have arrived at that the hard way.

all the same, it’s past time. i need to do some things for me and if it means i have to live alone for a time then that is what i must do. if it enables me to get into activities where i have to be social then it’s worth it. i can go on and on, but i already predicted this could be a year of great change.

and in the past two years i’ve experience great changes leaving my long-time job at the show and having my income go up. going to a job that can provide great growth – which i would also include evaluating how i approach interviewing not just the jobs i can take on. bottom line it i’m already one quarter through 2017 so if i want to make those necessary changes now is certainly the time to get started.

i’m convinced that the woman of my dreams whoever she may be is waiting for me. i either shoot my shot or i have to be the guy she desires. hopefully unlike many other time where she comes around and makes herself know i might not be caught off guard.

in the meanwhile, it’s literally time to attempt to live live on my terms. and not find myself fitting anyone’s definition of how i should live my life.

 

changes

been thinking about ways i can grow where i am currently. one of the reasons I left “the show” over two years ago was that i wasn’t growing at the theater. right now my job at “fresh foods” is somewhere i can grow.

the changes in the department has caused some disruption. our management is almost 100% flipped and brought in some new people or managers who are new to our team. they have to get to know us.

because fresh foods has been slashing the number of supervisors a few have moved on to other stores others have stepped down from their roles. they still work with us but they’re no longer supervisors.

allegedly one of those supervisors have stepped down not long after not becoming one of our assistant managers. someone told me he’s a bit frustrated which i understood especially after his interview. the job he went for had been reposted.

with all this pessimistic talk i’ve seen this before. it happened at “the show” people talking about moving on. people being a bit crabby – indeed one of the people who was on the panel just upped and quit a few days ago. things aren’t looking that great right now.

btw, as much as i want to hang in there and see how things shake out. how long do i wait until it’s too late?

being on the other side of an interview

i did my interviewing today. i can’t really talk about the interview, but just draw upon my own experiences interviewing with for a management position. a difficult process but to be in the hot seat.

my first management interview as hinted here was for a management position at a locally owned movie house. while at first my observation was that it went well i was floored when it didn’t go my way. for a long time it was hard understanding what happened. it never occurred to me that i won’t get it.

then with today’s experience i know why. my second opportunity was with a national movie theater chain and i’ll just say that i blew it. i somewhat know why it didn’t happen for me, but it’s acceptable to me now that it didn’t happen. perhaps it wasn’t meant to considering the experience i was hoping to leave behind at “the show”.

finally, i consider my experience seeking a supervisor position at my current company in grocery. i didn’t do a very good job preparing although my understanding of the job is somewhat strong even if not entirely. i consider the fact that i came back from a vacation and the interview came so soon (a day) after returning to chicago that left little room to prepare.

so with the movie theater – even if i worked with people who questioned everything i did managers and colleagues – i knew that business. i worked for almost five years in a theater so surely something has sunk in even if i know nothing about financials i have an idea about operations. perhaps the leadership skills are untested, but it’s possible to learn them.

most of my interviews for manager or not was largely improvised, i “winged” it. most of the time i didn’t do me much good, but most of the time i relied on my own experience. if my experience is in retail or theaters that’s what i relied on to get through the interview.

on the other hand, what i’ve realized i failed to do in a few interviews is that i didn’t know what a particular company offered. i at two different points interviewed with two grocery stores. one of them was the company i currently work for – we’ll just call them “fresh foods”. the other company we’ll just call “finer foods”.

a few months after graduating from mission i interviewed with “fresh foods” and crashed and burned. years later i figured out why, i had no idea what that company had to offer. the first time i heard of them was on tv with news stories advertising their health care plans. essentially that’s all i knew and while i did attempt to talk of their product offerings i had little clue about them.

in other words i could’ve know the goodness of this company years before i joined and  i would’ve had good benefits and good pay long before joining “the show”. if this was a sure thing i only talked myself out of it. i talked and the manager i spoke to chose not to hire me.

after my recent experience now i know how to approach future interviews as a job seeker. regardless of whether or not i’m staying with my current company whom i hope to last 5 years or i choose another. preparation will be key and no more winging it. have some semblance of a plan.

odds & ends

 

odds_and_endswas talking recently to a young coworker about all the changes at our store and also our company. there aren’t many paths to move up in our dept anymore as the company cut some supervisory positions. i was supposed to be up for a supervisory position – akin to an hr role for the dept unfortunately they cut the position so therefore no need to interview anyone.

one supervisor has moved on to a different store. the other two supervisors are stepping down from their roles because they both have found other jobs. we’re getting two assistant managers from other stores one of whom have left an unfortunate first impression upon arriving. another i will be on a panel to interview them.

also this coworker told me for the first time that our former boss made some good money. almost $30/hr and roughly $50K a year, and i admitted i would stick around just to make that much cash. though getting into a position would be such a competitive process.

btw, i also learned for the first time that our former boss who left last month is moving on to selling luxury cars. if my coworker is correct he found the right fit for him as a car salesman. he does sales for our dept and understands some of the nuances of sales. perhaps he’ll do well on a commission job and possibly double what he made as a dept manager.

we both have found ourselves wondering if we both joined at the wrong time. to which i try not to dwell on where the company is now.

i told him that it’s better he came to our store than to stay where he was down the street. he didn’t like it there and he moved on. things aren’t looking good right now, however it’s better than where he was.

in fact to look at my path. i left “the show” where i had a very limited path to succeed. and unfortunately at the mercy of other people who were looking for problems. then took a risk and moved onto a bank where i had limited hours – far less than at the movie theater – however a great potential to make more money through referrals. sadly i crashed and burned there and luckily landed somewhere to realize the potential to make more money. now things are a changing and i have to determine what’s next, but i’m at a good company where i could afford to move around.

and also i can consider that it was better to have worked at “the show” than to have nothing at all. perhaps close to five years at the theater is better than doing another temp job and then being let go and waiting for the next temp job. i used to shit on that old job, but it was necessary back in the day regardless of how long it took me to simply find another job and move on.

sh*t-talking

well the shit-talking has begun in our department, there is an assistant manager in our department helping us out as we figure out who will lead our dept. so we’re in a state of upheaval after our big boss quit for another job and another is departing soon to a new position at a new store.

this other assistant manager came from another store nearby. been with company almost two decades and is already not making a good first impression. she’s already starting to micromanage people and rub them the wrong way.

it’s one thing for her to rub regular employees the wrong way, it’s totally another to rub other members of leadership the wrong way. for example, I heard our acting dept. manager and one of the supervisors talking about her. the conversation they had wasn’t good. the supervisor said that she acts like she’s still new to the job and she was a micro-manager and yet been working there two decades. also she’s just interfering and she really isn’t doing anything.

i spoke to another coworker and i had my own opinion. there have been managers who used their authority to just be downright rude to employees and unnecessarily. most of the time i just took it but there’s always a breaking point. it’s often made worse because perhaps they found something i’m in the wrong about. i’m not saying that’s this lady’s shortcoming, but she has them regardless.

at least for me i can do something about it. i volunteered to be on a panel interview for at least assistant managers. so it’s one more thing to add to the resume especially when it happens. hopefully i can do my part to root out those individuals who aren’t likely to be good fits for our department. i just hope others see what we’ve been seeing.