The Hole

I found out last month that Larry was going into IT and was leaving the Hole thus his job was posted and unfortunately he was replaced by….Rayna. I haven’t maintained much contact with her since I’ve left the Hole, in fact when I’m in the store or in the neighborhood I’ve avoided her. Just felt that there was nothing there for me to even think we’d have a decent relationship.

She was the one who delivered the paperwork for the attendance probation along with an assistant store mgr. It was a weird affair when they tried to give me a “pep talk” I just tried to show hardly any reaction, the worst reaction was going to come a bit later at the climax. The assistant store mgr was more worried about me being upset at the time. What does he care unless he wanted a reaction?

Anyway I can’t believe I see her as the dept mgr for my old team at the Hole. She finally got what she wanted, as she was over there in 2017 to get the role and was deemed not ready. I wonder how much has changed since she transferred to the Hole and became another assistant mgr here. If she wasn’t ready four years ago how is she ready now?

Anyway I used to say it was more likely that I would return to the Hole. I don’t know about that now, perhaps it’s just time to move on from that fantasy. So many changes and so many people who I’ve worked with have finally moved on either to other companies within the store or within the company or whatever. Perhaps my plan to say it’s not that easy to get rid of me isn’t going to happen so easily.

Another fantasy I’ve had was to show up the people who were characters within the “Reign of Error” people like Morley or Roger or even since he’s still with the company as of now Mr. Boastful. If Rog ever thought of me any further beyond sending me to store leadership with the knowledge that on that day I was let go how upset would he be that I got his old job instead? And proved far more successful in that role than he was?

Would I ever be ready for that possibility? Is thinking that way a mistake?

Anyway as for Rayna who knows what the future might hold for her. She’s got what she wanted finally the question I might have to ask is whether or not she’ll be successful. Part of me thinks it will last six months and she’ll have to step down. I heard too many things about her past or what witnessed some issues to think that this will be a successful endeavor.

Meanwhile as a continuation of the most recent post, where do I go from here? Still working on it!

Domino revisited

Before I get into this post let me do a bit of housekeeping.

I had been trying to write another post about the Fiend and find myself deleting and rewriting posts. Not sure what else to say about that situation. Anything written will largely just be a reinterpretation of the same story. As stated often I’m still collecting the data however also stated what new will come of it as there is really nothing new to discuss. I’ve not heard from him since 2019 and from that there is nothing new to discuss.

I feel as if the next post about him might be it with him. Yeah it’s been said before but that also means it’s just time to come up with some more material to share on this blog. With that said let me get to the main event of this post.

Another thing to close the loop on is the drama from my former store the Hole. Four years ago next month I was unceremoniously dumped from the Hole based on attendance. In fact Ruthless Roger had snuck up on me in my dept to quietly usher me to store mgmt offices and walked right back out before our store mgr Morley relayed to me the bad news.

Oh let me add I do have a story to tell with regards to a later tardy which I will tell at a later date. It will somewhat explain the sequence of events that led to my separation from Fresh Foods during the Reign of Error/Calamity of 2017.

Either way, I’ve revealed to you all that there were at least three people whom I still have contact with who expressed some “relief” that Morley had gotten let go. One of them even referred to him as a d!ckhead. Another said there is a God. And another still just said they wanted to see the look on his face when he got the bad news.

I don’t have the same anger towards him. If there is they’re directed towards Rog based upon his behavior not long after he arrived in our dept. Morley is part of the story of the Reign of Error because he had to relay the bad news. Morley compared to the other store mgr in the office at the time (he was the one I had unsuccessfully interviewed with to return to the Hole) was less than helpful. This was true when I tried to figure out the “red-tape” about getting a buy/receive position as he was also less than helpful and to be fair I wasn’t that forceful either.

Anyway I get the feeling that Morley wasn’t a very popular boss among many. And I’ve told some statements about some statements he had made towards our dept. For example how are you going to make a statement threatening us with our jobs and do so with a very playful attitude. That seems very insensitive and unprofessional.

With that said a supervisor in my current dept over the summer told me that Morley got let go in 2019 because he had failed a corporate walk and was under investigation for harassment. I don’t know what to say about walks other than I have no idea what a corporate executive – usually from Fresh’s regional HQ – is looking for on their visits. Whatever happened on whatever day that walk occurred it turned into the “green mile” for store mgr Morley. So evidently that walk didn’t go well and possibly that investigation wasn’t found to be in Morley’s favor.

Part of me wanted to really ask how he came across this info, I just decided not to push this any further. This was mind blowing information that I told only one of the three colleagues who had issues with him. That person simply said “fcuk that guy!”

I just told him the story about how yours truly found out Morley was let go and my response and he just told me. I’ve told him of some of my interactions with him though I didn’t tell him about my interactions with him when I was let go.

What I did reference when talking about Morley was not only the story I relayed to you all about what he said to us before a store meeting one morning. Also Morley’s justification for my termination which was as far as that final tardy “no one else was affected by it and corporate never said anything”. This was where that supervisor gave me some advice on this, that I should’ve actually escalated this further.

Well now we can close the book on this for this blog.

Embargo

A few weeks ago I learned something about the store mgr who fired me just about four years ago, Morley. You may have seen a quick post about that just about two years ago entitled Domino. Right now my plan is to share that information a bit later in a post to revisit that episode.

This information is regarding Morley’s removal from the company in 2019 and was received from a supervisor at work. I don’t know how he knows this information as I opted not to ask any further questions. Just know that this supervisor knows about what was going on up there about some of the managers. The first time we spoke about Morley I made sure to note that he got let go and the supervisor used his thumb to say out! Sort of like an umpire in baseball.

We went further to talk about another guy we knew Ruthless Roger. I’ve told him what I knew although what was omitted was how rough my relationship became with /goofball. Hearing this supervisor, the idea seemed to have been no one liked him. His personality was the type where he needed to come back down to earth and we generally agree that whatever happened at the Hole sent Rog crashing back down to the ground. Another thing is that as a manager he just wasn’t that good and a lot of people picked up on it.

I even told this supervisor that when our store receiver arrived from the Hole she saw me in my dept at the time and wondered “How did you wind up here?” My answer was it wasn’t my choice and her next question “Was it Roger?” My answer to that is yes & no, as yours truly were having some issues and Rog just didn’t give a $h!t. The supervisor just responded everyone knew as in knew something was up.

I even told the supervisor that a supervisor I worked with at the Hole offered not long before getting rehired that Roger was definitely on the verge of getting fired. Basically just a guess, anyone who worked with him knew that becoming a dept mgr wasn’t going to work out well for him. This is why we could call him Ruthless, however, how ruthless was he if he crashed and burned.

Which leads to the next part of this dialogue, I promised this supervisor to tell him why yours truly left the Hole (that promise was ultimately fulfilled). This promise was made because it was recognized by both of us had said more than enough about “Ruthless”. In this supervisor’s words we shouldn’t give him the glory by talking about him. Even if his attempt at moving up blew up in his face, he already has enough of a massive ego that perhaps he shouldn’t even be thought about anymore.

Perhaps this is one way of closing the loop on ’17. It wasn’t until recently that I recognize is as a year of calamity. A friendship that never should’ve happened started to get strained to the point of no return. The job that seemed to have gone very well just turned 180 degree got me dismissed in part due to the mgmt change with my team. My mother still having health challenges eventually retired because she lost her job at a bank that failed. Some unusual turn of events made worse that I eventually lost my job near the end of that year. It was a calamity and a slow burn.

I’ve written about the whole Reign of Error in various iterations since learning Rog was no longer the dept mgr at the Hole. And as far as the more recent series of Reign of Error posts my feeling is there hasn’t been a very adequate ending to that. Perhaps there isn’t a need, the ending is that yours truly returned to Fresh Foods and found out that /goofball got demoted from dept mgr to supervisor and eventually left the company.

Since that time yours truly received a number of accolades in addition to making over 10K associate hours and was made associate of the week this month. If my time at the Hole ushered in for my the so-called big money years, my second stint is even more so and I’m still not done. And another thing is that yours truly cut out the deadweight that only served to eat both positive energy and finances because he had none.

And the deadweight – well he’s been mentioned enough on this blog to be honest – yours truly still has his thoughts about him. Perhaps this has been said enough times, however, it will soon be time to close the loop on that individual as well. Meanwhile I’ll warn you, there is another post coming about the deadweight in the future.

Oh yeah the “embargoed’ information about Morley expect to see that in October which would be the two year point of his dismissal from the Hole. In fact this is what I had told the supervisor. Yours truly was looking up jobs on Fresh’s social network saw Morley’s store mgr job was up for bid. A colleague who was still there had sent a meme-like msg to me and I replied back that the store mgr at the Hole was open. The colleague responded “Uh yeah. Morley got fired on Tuesday for reasons unknown”. This was when the supervisor at my current assignment told me what he knew. It still blew me away, however, you will know in the next few months.

Odds & Ends

I’ve decided not to go for the position in my old dept because reasons. I asked the former buyer now assistant manager when the position will close and he had said it had closed already. Although it was still on our company’s social network for over two weeks. Still my gut tells me it’s not my time yet, and that’s fine until hopefully they might need someone else to help out on buy/receive.

The former associate buyer is going for it, he said so himself as he wants to go back anyway. However, one of the supervisors is going for it at this time as well. Who knows what’ll happen the new assistant manager believes that the former associate buyer might remain where he is for now.

I spoke to the supervisor days before the interview and it sounds like sales are going in the right direction at this point. Up 60% compared to where the dept was as the pandemic was in full swing and before I got transferred out. Perhaps we shall see what happens with the buyer thing and perhaps they’ll finally post for additional help to fulfill that role in that dept in the near future.

* I got an update on being my dept’s team receiver. The man who originally held the job might be coming back soon, however, to light duty. It seems he’s been sheepish about his condition. From what I was told he had his own issues with attendance evidently so perhaps there aren’t many who are upset if he just ups and quits. But then we have a month to see what happens with him.

At first I thought his absence was due to this bug. However, I got the idea that he was badly injured at some point. Again from what I was told the team receiver just isn’t forthcoming with details on his condition. Again we’ll see what happens.

I’ve been handling that young man’s duties for a while now. Recently I find myself really dividing my time between the floor and the backstock areas. Often by choice fairly recently my boss had me make some signs as we had an audit from a higher up checking on the accuracy of our retail signage. Regardless I call it real work as opposed to just putting stuff away as of late. To another receiver I called this “real work”…

Either way as far as moving up and making a few extra change I’ll remain diligent to see what positions are available to me. Certainly to pursue the ones that I really like and especially ones that I know I can take public transit to. I still got my eye on the Hole don’t think I’ve forgotten about them!

* Here’s a throwback for you.

I learned recently that the General Manager and his first officer the House Manager are no longer at The Show. From a dubious source I refer to as Woz I was also told that the GM was let go because it was discovered that he stole some cash. I wrongfully told Woz that I heard some inklings. Either way The Show on it’s jobs page is showing an opening for a GM there which has been up for just about a week now.

The little intelligence I know about the GM is that he painstakingly squeezes any profit he can out of The Show. He’s a real cheapskate and might explain why they just don’t believe in raises. Another thing we know about him is that he’s just not a people person, he’s all business. I sort of respect him because he’s aloof, many of the other managers just sort of get into stuff.

This allows me to someone revisit the episode Petty. That’s a case in point, HM gets involved with a case of “he bumped into me do something” and he digs right in. What helped to end it was GM got involved. I wasn’t budging from my position I didn’t see why HM got involved in it and if I have to say excuse me then so should the antagonist, Kelly. As a manager – something I never got promoted to do – I hope I’d handle it much differently than HM. The GM probably handled this the best way as HM couldn’t settle this and GM witnessed that we were going at it. GM probably got keyed in after I responded to HM’s very sad attempt at raising his voice at yours truly.

How do I know I defeated HM? It seemed once we were sequestered in the mgmt office GM & HM were just trying to tell me how it’s a common courtesy to just say excuse me. Except the frustration of this situation just got in my head and I wasn’t accepting that. I cut off GM and told him for the last time I’m not saying excuse me to Kelly until she says excuse me to me. The GM in frustration said nothing and turned to HM and HM had a problem he took it from there. Not that the aftermath was handled more smoothly by HM in the long run….

Also it seemed GM had backed HM over the years and its a wonder that HM remained as a manager. Well what I do know is that if mgmt don’t like you they’ll hurry up and hustle you out. Perhaps on some level that was how many of them felt about yours truly. It took me a minute to finally leave and thankfully I left on my own terms. However it became clear among some of them that my presence there was an issue to them it could be performance, though it might just be serious personality differences too. I think that’s sad a manager can’t work with a person due to personality differences. Perhaps they’re in the wrong job not just yours truly.

All the same whatever dubious story Woz told and as of yet I’m unsure how to verify. It just means more significant changes has happened at The Show or $h!tplace. It could be good it could be bad, but just time for someone else to run it for now. Perhaps I should re-apply. 😛

Anyway I consider Woz’s story to be dubious but I can believe due to this pandemic the company that owns The Show has opted to make a few changes in the long run. I would much believe that in the long run than any attempts to skim money.

* Oh man I can’t believe it’s been going on seven years since I left The Show. If you can’t tell over the years on this blog, I’ve been counting the time away. I like where I am now however as have been experienced in the last few years I shouldn’t get too comfortable or complacent. When it comes to compensation my standards still aren’t very high. At the same time where I am now isn’t necessarily where I’m destined to stay. That’s just fine with me.

Some of my young cohorts thought I’d still be at the theater. At some point it was time for me to leave, one confused young lady when I stated what my future would be which was “hopefully retired” stated confused “retired….from here”. I suppose she just had to say something, but no need to take stock in anything she needs to say. Others have especially her peers I just attribute her sphere of influence to immaturity.

Regardless what an era which I often look at in terms of character building. Certainly in terms of rebuilding and just getting established. Outside of a classroom I didn’t have that or never really actively created that. Also I should know how to conduct myself with people however one lesson learned is don’t take $h!t from anyone. And still be careful if you’d rather earn a paycheck until you can say I don’t need a boss and you can support yourself on your own.

Either way I do find myself wondering where many of the young people I have worked with are doing now. And there is some inkling one works in a variety of kitchens and wouldn’t be too surprised if he becomes a chef. Another seems to be doing blue collar work judging by some of his instagram posts – hmmmm if only I had that vision years ago. Some have joined the armed services, others have graduated college, and others may have left the theater but not doing anything much different. However, I’ve never been so relieved to have quit $h!tplace as I have been right now.

Earlier in this pandemic, when cinemas closed down I recognized that this is when I would be out of work. Perhaps have to file for unemployment and in this case I wouldn’t be fired just laid off. So free money for as long as it’s available. However, I’m much happier to be getting out of the house to work at a grocery store as opposed to be sitting at home though I could live without many of these controversial mitigations.

* Future plans this month. Well I still plan to visit my episode where I have my last real convo with Anthony. It was regarding an encounter with yet another strange person I met from The Show whom I call Deranged Barney. I suppose I should be through talking about a man I know call The Fiend and I’m not. Though it seems like that story line needs to wind down as well I’ve really said what was necessary.

Another thing about Planet Hustle I’ve explored was leaving The Show and I wrote a post years ago about The Crisis. These days I feel as if The Fiend created a crisis in the ways that only he could. A lot of gossip and manipulation to get me to go into his direction. I’ll leave it up to you if he was successful or not. That’s another direction I can go.

Another thing I have great relief over is The Fiend can no longer stay in contact and decide to just inject his influence. If something is going on that doesn’t “suit him” he’ll try to do something about it. If that means he goes negative he will. If that means he’ll inject a piece of advice that isn’t necessary he will. Whatever his advice it will always suit him and not really be the best for me. Perhaps more accurate these are things he would do more than this is what I must do.

I suppose another lesson from my time at the theater is that I can see some patterns and tendencies better than I used to. Too bad that it took a few years for these lessons to stick. I just need to be better able to cut things off before it really becomes an issue. Reminds me of a meme…

An ongoing process.

March 2015

At this point I was working at the Hole for just about 2 months. I didn’t know that soon I’ll be working “full-time” for the first time in life. The transition wasn’t too difficult, however, I was in a different environment than expected. Or was I?

What I was doing at a grocery store wasn’t terribly different than for example a theater concession stand. Just a bit more prep work and certainly a clearer idea of what’s expected. The products weren’t as limited as a cinema – you know popcorn, candy, hot dogs, etc. However, I had to get used to what I was doing and when I first started looking at a jobs with Fresh Foods my inclination was to be at the front end ringing up customer groceries.

Either way, I had to do another call with the state’s unemployment officials in March ’15 as Gotham Bank had filed an appeal after benefits were approved even if it was just for no more than three weeks – from the time I got let go from that branch in December ’14 to orientation at Fresh in January ’15. As it was termed I got benefits with an initial payout then after continuing to register weekly for regular payouts after that. It wasn’t much but for a brief time I had some income coming, and still no overhead. 😛

The initial process was easy and under the guidance of a friend – no not the Friend I never told him directly what happened with the bank. There were no direct documentation that I had to sign just a lot of verbal warnings and what not. I think the only main warning I got was not from anyone in mgmt or otherwise any standing but from co-worker. And I had to guess at the final act which I was never told directly. When Ed and Stan pulled me into the office Ed fired off a number of offenses which I could easily categorize as issues with attendance (specifically tardies) and performance as a teller. A list of things that allowed him to determine that he just didn’t like what he sees. Made sure to reference the probationary period for Gotham which was about 90 days, and I was just about halfway through that once things ran their course there.

So I guessed at what the final straw had been, I made sure to tell them what I had been told. Correctly I guessed one particular incident that happened that helped Ed make up his mind about my job there. I get a letter approving my benefits saying I was not at fault and the friend based on some of what I had been telling him determined that my training was an issue. Then again I will admit I was incompetent and uneasy in that role and as stated as time went on and didn’t get on well in my new role yours truly began to dread coming to work at that branch everyday…

For the record the hearing over the phone for the appeal had been cancelled I got a phone call for it the day it was supposed to happen. Actually in a fit of pretending to be my brother who hadn’t seen lived with us for over a decade I took a message that Gotham had rescinded their appeal. If the appeal from Gotham had gone through I’d have to repay that money and thankfully at that time it wasn’t necessary.

I had read up on the company and how they handled unemployment claims. It seemed they contested all unemployment claims and if they lost they will appeal. I had the unfortunately issue of being unable to find my schedule from the bank because in the initial phone call which was before my orientation for the Hole from what the agent told me over the phone there was some discrepancies as far as when that final act occurred. If I remembered the date the agent had told me correctly I wasn’t even at work that day and looked at a copy of my schedule from the bank still in my possession. If the appeal was rescinded I didn’t have to prove that.

However, one thing I could say for Ed one time he pulled me in the office and he got his dates wrong. While he was going to get me on something that given day, he was trying to mention something that we talked about on another day in the office and it was all wrong. I demonstrated that I do remember what we talked about everytime he wanted to talk $h!t to yours truly. Right or wrong Ed seemed to have some arrogance about him and this was not the first time nor the last time I encountered this from a manager. Problem is when they want to get you on something there isn’t much to say about it on my end and was still on the defensive in the long run….

Regardless smooth sailing in the new year at the new job. We started off with a decent crew in the beginning. A few we lost for a variety of reasons probably attendance related or otherwise just realized this wasn’t for them. However, I viewed my new job and company as yet another new beginning. Besides the hot shot job at the bank didn’t work out and that was supposed to be something of a new beginning from The Show.

Oh, yeah I like to talk about the big money years. Well 2015 was the start and it’s basically ongoing even with the hiccup that came later. Minimum wage in Illinois back in 2014 was still $8.25/hr. When I moved over to the bank I went up to about $3.25 more per hour than the hourly wage offered at The Show which was minimum wage. However starting off at Gotham the position was only 20 hrs a week and yes there were opportunities to add to your paycheck i.e. make referrals and never felt too comfortable doing that at the time. I think on Gotham’s version of a social network I saw there doing this for a year would get me, basically I wouldn’t make more money than I had made at The Show. Basically under my minimum goal of making $20K/year, my yearly income assuming no changes would still be roughly in the $10K/year range.

However at the Hole as time goes on that year, I get benefits mainly health insurance and dental. Also a raise after six months, and especially being lifted up into full-time status which means overtime and working up to 40 hrs a week I would ultimately reach that $20K/year goal in 2015. As far as benefits that would wait until a bit later I didn’t immediately get benefits or was unsophisticated about the company’s processes as far as enrolling in benefits once I became full-time. However, by the end of the year I’d get there.

After a couple of years of the streak era, I was going to achieve some of the minimum goals I had from roughly the start. A job with benefits and at a minimum make $20K/year.

Climax of the Reign of Error

I got to admit the climax forced yours truly to slow his role. At least that’s the conclusion I’ve had to come to years later. I put the climax on part with the situation involving the Hustler/Friend. As it turned out the whole calamity of 2017 would prove to be a turning point with our odd friendship.

I went from reaching what I thought of as an apex to my time at the Hole to a bit of a collapse. He’s as much part of the story as Roger or Mr. Boastful in my mind with 20/20 hindsight. He’s one example of someone who wasn’t in your corner and just wasn’t on the same page with yours truly. Everyone who you expect to be with you, often isn’t.

Mr. Boastful had some of the same interests as myself, I even considered him something of a friend. I had to conclude that he probably could speak the same language as the Hustler, except for one thing it actually got him somewhere. Once Rog decided to pull me off of buy/receive and post for the role that I couldn’t interview for Boastful went right for it. I had no choice but to suck it up, however, I thought some of his actions back then indicated a certain form of cockiness. As I accepted this, my view of this is one of us were moving up as Roger’s trend had been to bring in people he knew.

I even let Boastful in on meeting our mutual former boss at another Fresh store one day when I had been shopping. Even discussed possibly using some pull to leave, thankfully the smart thing I never told him was that I was on the verge of being let go due to the attendance probation. He knew points were an issue, he just didn’t know how bad. When the climax happened he probably knew then, if he took the time to think about it.

However, since he was getting in my head about it someone had to tell me he felt threatened. He had been ambitious seeking opportunities to move up. I tend to move slowly, however, he’ll go ahead and take the opportunities. Once I got out of the way he had the green light to go for it, however, as indicated in some earlier posts he was waiting for yours truly to make a mistake. There wasn’t much yours truly could do about that, however, he sure was letting me know he was paying attention to the situation. He probably wasn’t the only one either. Still the nagging feeling in the back of my head even now just lets me know what was in his head. Perhaps by my seeming ascension he indeed got threatened….

I should mention Roger, I was told belatedly that his issue has been that he stepped on a lot of toes trying to be real strict. Never really was familiar with that cliche, however, someone explained to me that it denotes trying to establish dominance. He wants everyone to know that he’s the boss and you will answer to him and he will take action which included termination. He wanted to be a hard-ass a term used by one of my former supervisors, and as noted many times on this blog he lost his hot-shot boss position in no less than six months.

Rog had the tendency to sneak up, to just walk up on yours truly and he did that on three occasions. It could be a means to intimidate and certainly to dominate. The first time he did this was not too long after he decided to make a big show out of yours truly being essentially out of uniform.

  • The first time I was on my way back from a 15-min break and was headed back to the floor. As I was headed back to the floor when I heard someone call me name out of nowhere. It was Roger just turning around a corner, he wanted to have a talk with yours truly in the office about fruit flies, empty boxes, food debris, and fruit flies because he found something else to complain about. I don’t remember for how long he was on duty on that given morning, but evidently something he felt necessary to address in that fashion.
  • The second time I was just about to do a box bale after finishing my receiving on that day. This wasn’t long after pulling me off the buy/receive thing. He had interviews for associate buyer – a position I couldn’t even interview for because I was on that “probation” – and as I was working I turned around and he was right behind me. Even made sure to note that people usually don’t like him sneaking up on them like he just did me (then why does he do it if he often gets negative feedback?). All he wanted in that instance was to have me cover for Mr. Boastful who had an interview for that position on that day.
  • The last time he did this on the day I actually consider the Climax of the Reign of Error. My last shift at the Hole, I was doing temps on my station and was no more than an hour and a half waiting for quitting time. Out of nowhere I hear behind me “Jack, come with me” in Rog’s nerdy baritone. From there he escorts me directly to store mgmt offices because that last tardy I had it was a means to get rid of yours truly.

That’s where I’m going to leave this! I will say that once he was all hush-hush at this moment I knew what was coming. But that meant after things run their course, he wasn’t going to hit me with anymore bull$h!t, however, what happened next is why he’s definitely in my book of infamy to this day.

What’s new

Lately at work I’ve been stuck with a bunch of nights lately, and I’m not happy about it. One way to look at this is well if I got there at 7 AM by the time I get off with no coffee I’m going to doze off when going home on the train. On the other hand if I have to go in later I sleep in. Going in early has drawbacks, but so does going in later and especially if I take public transit.

Either way I’ve been trying to decide how to put an end to these constant nights. Everyone once in a while is one thing, just about every night is another. Really this began before I left the other department and even then it wasn’t this consistent. I’m trying to avoid being a whiner because I’ve already worked with a number of those types anyway in my work life.

Either way I wish I had some more midshifts because at least I won’t just be leaving work at around 10:00 at night. I’d be fine leaving work at 8:00 but those are not the shifts I’m drawing lately.

I do want to express alternatives I’ve been looking at as been discussed occasionally since the pandemic started. Sadly some bad habits crop up when looking into these alternatives for example leaving the store and/or going to another department.

Last month I found out that one of my old supervisors from my old dept had left to go to my old store the Hole. I ran into him one day going there and shopping, I had little idea that he left my assignment. He was with us for a short time from just before the pandemic so more than a relatively respectable amount of time. According to him he just wanted to work at the Hole because it was more convenient for him and closer to home.

Well there’s one possibility going back to my old dept and taking his spot. So far my old dept hasn’t posted for another supervisor, they also lost an assistant mgr as he took on the same role at another store again closer to home for him. So far my old dept hasn’t posted for another assistant mgr and no I don’t think it’s the right role for yours truly right now. Supervisor I wouldn’t mind interviewing for, and then again who knows they could just elevate their trainer into that role if they so chose. If they feel there is a gap in coverage then that could be a step in the right direction.

One of the supervisors – actually he was a trainer when I tried to get back with the Hole just about three years ago – has moved onto another store. He’s now an assistant manager in a different department. I haven’t contacted him since he’s no longer on facebook evidently. That means my old dept at the Hole should be looking for another supervisor and so far see no such evidence of that.

You know it might just be sales don’t support doing any hiring for any higher level positions as of late due to the pandemic. Remember I always stated it was more likely for me to return to the Hole than it is for yours truly returning to The Show. However, the holidays come and gone and I see nothing is still going on with my former department. Perhaps this whole thing has really did a number with the old team which I know is a much different team today. Regardless while my old team at my current store has hired new people although there are people (mostly part-times unlike yours truly) who got shunted away to other departments were surely told they have “dibs” on any future hiring that just hasn’t happened assuming they don’t want to go back to that department.

I had passed up one opportunity I could be interested in. It was at the store closest to The Show meaning a return to the old neighborhood as it were. I would be a receiver in yet another dept so it would be up my alley and expectantly earlier start time. That posting was up for a couple of weeks and I see it has since been taken down. Perhaps they found someone they want to interview or they just had no takers so far. It’s something I do want to get back into which I why I hoped the Hole would finally post for those positions by now.

When I first wrote this post I found a position that Larry has finally posted for at my old dept at the Hole. It’s a part-time position and right now I’m just not interested in that. I’ll keep my eye out for something I think I could apply for there. Meanwhile I just need to keep my options open. Meanwhile let’s go back to the close I had already written.

Unfortunately there goes my handicap. Going for what I want instead of taking the opportunities available. I want to return to the Hole with some of the changes there, however, nothing for me to pursue. I can’t help but hesitate with opportunities other than the Hole or even my current assignment. I just need to create my plan and work the plan….

Otherwise that’s what’s been happening with me so far this year. Here’s hoping 2021 is a better year.

Climax of 2017

On New Years Day 2018, I was out of work. I had two interviews from the jump with the national theater chain I had been employed during 2016 – the Dine-In Show which I also had an interview and didn’t get an offer. I had also been interviewed with the theater I had been trying to get on board with when I was still at The Show up until 2014 which resulted in no-offer.

I was still dealing with the ouchie from being let go from the Hole and although I knew that Ruthless Roger wasn’t going to last long with a paucity of updates about the situation at that point I was beginning to believe in a different narrative. Perhaps Rog might actually work out in his role, he’s fulfilling his role as a change agent trying to inject some new blood into my former department. I was just about a month away from realizing that it hadn’t worked out and he was no longer in charge of my former department. And it was time to re-apply with Fresh Foods.

I know I promised a Climax of the Reign of Error post, there isn’t much I feel is necessary to write right now. I’ve written a few times about what happened – my train was running late due to an unforeseen emergency got a late slip because it wasn’t in my control and certainly by Rog and definitely by Morley it was justified as corporate never said anything and no one else had been affected so you’re out BYE. One part of the story to be told was Rog just hours before the end of my shift snuck up behind me to escort me into the store mgmt offices only for him to walk back out coldly. On second thought I do want to hash that out.

Either way I didn’t know that this month Roger was on his way out as dept mgr for my old department at that point. I was still applying during the cold of winter establishing a new routine as the previous routine was unceremoniously changed over two months earlier.

You know the climax was hard because my mother was unemployed from earlier the year before. She lost her job when her company was taken over by banking regulators. I lost my job and had a not as healthy senior citizen mother at home. I knew that yours truly was going to be the primary breadwinner although at least my mother had her own retirement to lean on. Regardless with me out of work she had a different role at that point than she would’ve had in different times.

At that point all yours truly could do was continue plugging away though for the moment just avoid Fresh Foods until I was close to getting out of that 6 month period before I could reapply.

It wasn’t until I stated on Facebook that I saw Black Panther that Anthony/The Hustler/Fiend had been flushed out. He actually wished me a happy birthday out of the blue the year before, however, I really hadn’t heard much from him since the summer before. I never communicated to him about the job loss and once the soft blackout with him commenced he had no idea how things just began to go 180 degrees in a whole different direction. I often get the feeling he’d take advantage of such disarray…

Regardless all he had to do before he started trying to get into contact was attempt to comment on Facebook “you never said what theater you went to” once I noted seeing Black Panther. I deleted the comment feeling a bit irritated that he was attempting to repeat a schtick that was no longer amusing at that point.

I suppose not much to report for that period of time. Just hopeful as one can be in a somewhat different circumstance.

I do want to add however that I heard different things about Roger’s last few days at the Hole. I heard from Wil who was the associate buyer that until Rog had departed he hardly spoke to anyone. Two supervisors noted that he had bought a house in the suburbs and evidently didn’t want to commute into downtown any longer – sounds like an excuse doesn’t it. Even one supervisor somewhat expressed such a thought to yours truly when I contacted him. I heard through the grapevine – not from those aforementioned supervisor – that he was pulled aside once he referred to his department as a bunch of gangbangers. Yeah that’ll do it, and once hearing that I just started laughing because it made sense.

Either way while I was buying into the hype in my own head that he just might work out, the reality was that he may well have been exposed while finding people he can get rid of. Eventually I will have more of a complete picture once I return to work in the spring.

December

Before I knew it was December and usually I update this blog often enough to find things to talk about even retreading some old stories. I still haven’t put a satisfactory story together to discuss the climax of the reign of error. I hope to be motivated to do so during the course of this month the last one of 2020 a very fantastical year in my own memory. I hope 2021 will start off differently.

I had a nice discussion with my mother recently and I basically led with some unusual occurances at Fresh Foods in other stores. For example one of my former colleagues Mr. Boastful had moved on to Fresh’s flagship store to become a buyer and during the course of the year witnessed a regime change as the boss who hired him moved on.

Reportedly by someone who’s formerly worked with the company and who I formerly worked with at my current assignment that manager was essentially fired and now he’s no longer with the company. His job was posted though at some point he eventually left before I finally saw that they filled his old position. I get the feeling that Mr. Boastful will find himself going elsewhere in the near future he is the type who will get a bit disatisfied with his role and surely it’s because he knows he can do better.

Another odd occurance is that the store manager is also leaving as his job is now up. For now he remains in his current position however time will tell to find out if he’s leaving the company or he’s just moving up or moving on. Probably unlike what happened in 2019 with the Hole’s former mgr Morley. However in both cases I’m out of the loop and only they know what’s going on.

As far as the dept mgr who’s gone, I’ve never met him. When I arrived on the scene at my store he had left a while back. I didn’t hear many good things about him and often his portrayal of that was as a hard manager. At least he made good money at Fresh’s flagship store as it had been one of the top stores of the region.

Meanwhile as the pandemic continues I’m still surviving and looking for the right position. I’m still hoping Larry will have a position available for me to pursue in the near future. His dept hasn’t been hiring at all since this pandemic became a thing. It is what it is, I want to finish what I had started during the Reign of Error. I want to be able to do what I wanted over two years ago.

For now all I can do is pursue the opportunities that are available for me as of now. And I hope to do a bit more posting during the course of this month 🙂

Before the “climax”

I wanted to revisit an Odds & Ends post from over three years ago. It was at a mark before the climax of the Reign of Error. As per usual I decided to re-edit the post but largely kept my thought process as it was back then. My goal wasn’t to change much other than to make that post as readable as possible.

Remember I wrote that I ran into my former boss – the one who hired me at Fresh Foods in the beginning – at his new assignment. He’s now a store mgr at the very same store I had actually ran into him randomly in ’17. And near the end of 2019 I ran into him again at the very same store though in a different capacity.

The tone of this visit was different than two years earlier. For one I didn’t know this yet but at the time I was close to losing my job, dangerously close. I was very unprepared to let him know how close to the edge I was teetering. However, he was attempting to look out for me even suggested positions to apply for to leave the Hole.

At the time he knew that things were getting rough, I admitted it was the new regime. Of course when I met him much later he thought about what happened after he left and he mentioned some of his predecessors not mentioning /goofball.

He noted then that he’d write me a recommendation if I wanted to leave. With the situation of my attendance at the time even with his word, would have been a very tough sell. The situation I was in wasn’t my friend. I did think about it and was prepared to get to work on that, however, I just had to be late one more time.

I was tripping myself over this paragraph:

I also wish I could tell him that the guy who helped train him – as per an email that was posted not long before our old boss left our store – well he’s not happy. He’s worried that his coworkers and manager are talking about him behind his back. I also wish I could tell him that as a receiver the new boss elected to push me aside for some vague reason although I now know that it’s to put in people he knows. Again that’s his prerogative. What I didn’t want to do is make this situation so negative that he begins to wonder if I’m as much the problem. Besides his view of me having a good attitude is what allowed him to hire me in the first place!

I alluded to this in another post earlier this summer. One of the cooks in my department stopped me in the cooler while I was putting away product asking me if a coworker and /goofball had been talking about him. All I could say was that the coworker was actually sucking up to his boss and that no one’s name was mentioned at all. At this point he was insecure about his job and from what I heard because I eavesdrop sometimes he was suffering some health issues as a result of the drama at the Hole.

Consider what happened with that coworker is a sign of some of the changes occurring at the Hole under the man I would eventually identify as Roger at the time. He lost the assignment he liked the most although in his case he got shifted around, he even rightfully told his coworkers in the kitchen that if they didn’t have to also do breakfast, they could get caught up with their lunchtime production. He wasn’t wrong, however, he’s not in a leadership capacity.

The coworker even admitted to me later that there were some issues with the hot wells. I saw /goofball and a store manager working on the issues one morning. Even took some pics of the burned items on the wells. The coworker told me that he purposefully never mentioned the issues, he knew what to do so that they wouldn’t have these issues. However, since Roger came in on a sledgehammer of change the coworker held out on critical information.

Either way, not long after the encounter with my former boss I would experience the climax – which I hope to still share with you all before the end of the month. The ending of the story which I have shared was that part of the reason I returned to the company after a six month hiatus was the word of this old boss and Larry who took over my old dept at the Hole to come over to my latest assignment.

I never really told my old boss what happened near the end other than my disappointments. Perhaps he wasn’t that interested, but I thanked him for what the man who hired me at the other location had told me he had spoken for me. I had spoken to Larry since but never relayed that information to him and it’s worth it.