change

i used to say you can find yourself in a good situation and you can always lose it. you say that thinking it braces you from the impact of what happens, and then it happens. in this case losing your job which happened to me recently at “fresh foods”.

perhaps i believe i’m more than capable of handling any problem as you see from the body of work on this blog, it’s not always true. in this case i couldn’t handle the new situation at work, a new manager with a new team. i didn’t trust them and they didn’t keep me from losing my job.

in writing this post i could talk about the grumbling from some of my now former coworkers. i can take it with a grain of salt now or perhaps not because it cost me my job. perhaps i was starting to be a grumbler as i had been at “the show”. when things aren’t going well i can be a grumbler just complain and get in the drama though in this case it’s not little teeny-bopper drama because I don’t know any better.

today on the train i ran into one of my former colleagues at “fresh foods” and without telling him what happened with me i asked him how’s it going up there. my expectation – genuinely perhaps some positive changes – he simply said “same old bullshi*t”. the new regime hasn’t changed yet, the situation hasn’t settled down though he hopes it does for the best – to which i simply crossed my fingers and hoped for the best with him.

what i told him when he mentioned the B.S. is “this is why i’m gone!” though i wanted to emphasize that i had the best job of my life and i blew it. in doing my best to adjust to a difficult situation i still didn’t do my best to adjust to it. i was just another worker at the end of the day that mgmt had to let go. they were right i did place myself into that situation getting onto an attendance probation where i couldn’t be late for six months and it just had to be one more time – which was out of my hands.

i asked my former colleague about my replacement on receiving another colleague who wanted to learn about buying. my former colleague said he’s still doing receiving though they have him back and forth between the sales floor schedule-wise. supposedly he was supposed to have been given a raise – just as i hoped to get the position of receiver and just like me – he evidently didn’t get it. the new boss who i’ll call roger didn’t pull through and my colleague who’s a math nerd and a wrestling fan i’m sure told because he can be vocal.

so right now what about yours truly? well i intend to reapply in six months. in light of what happened and how i feel about the new regime because of how it all ended i don’t know if i want to go back to that store assuming things haven’t settled down. it would be ok with me to apply at other stores than the one i had the chance to know. thankfully i’m allowed the opportunity to return…

now i do have my feelings about roger and don’t intend to demonize him. i will say that after perhaps a month of him being the new dept. mgr. i realized that i wasn’t feeling him. perhaps he had the same feeling about me. there’s a reason i don’t trust him and perhaps there’s a reason he doesn’t trust me.

if i couldn’t be on time, it gave him the ammunition. he may well have had a scrutinizing eye which i feel he had towards me at least. i also recognize that as a new mgr he had the right to make some changes and he made them. i could get on board or get out the way and to be sure some of those changes got me in the situation i was in.

perhaps i’ll talk about them more at length. this post had to be about me tonight! there are some lessons i need to learn from this, and I WILL figure it out!

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the story line ends

iphone4s1-10-2014 138on this day – november 1st – i declare at an end the story line on this blog with regards to “the show” a little bit later than i expected, but better to do it now. with respect i had a couple of posts in mind before ending it then i realized what was the point. especially with mostly non-descript people who were hell bent on their actions at work.

many of these people i won’t say much to them again and didn’t say much to them while at work. it’s safe to say that in some respects i fell into my anti-social tendencies, but then in some respects many i’ve worked with had them too. even if they may hide behind being social with those they’re most comfortable with. for the most part i did the same!

all the same, now if i ever bring up the show again it’ll only be for new developments. perhaps i visited up there or was in contact with someone from “the show”. this doesn’t mean simply seeing them on the train, it means we spoke and got updates on our current lives. it’s cool that there was no hard feelings with those i spoke with from “the show” the others i’m sure i won’t exist to them at all wherever we come across each other.

at this point i have to move on from this. sometimes this is a forgotten point, the past has nothing new to say. now to just learn some lessons because as often stated on this blog i gained a lot from my experience at the theater. i had to learn to deal with people – customers, colleagues, and managers. and with this in mind, in dealing with people you do have to deal with them in a business context.

to be honest there is one more post to share about “the show”. it’s about my old friend anthony and it’s something that you can expect as the next post. it’s not about “the show” exactly, but he was attempting to get me to go out to the chicago theater with someone we formerly worked with. it blew up in his face more than anything and he’ll still find an excuse to bring it up.

otherwise anything involving “the show” especially from my past…

FIN

backburner?

have been going through some things at the moment. this blog might be placed on the backburner for now. i’d like to tell you about some of the current “drama”, but not feeling it right now.

what i will say is that it blows some of what i talked about at “the show” out of the water. regardless it’s a bit of a situation that allows me to forget about that for now. and my hope is that this situation is only temporary.

believe it or not it does involve “fresh foods” and at least it doesn’t involve the strong opinions of teenaged girls. all the same there will be time for details and will look forward to sharing them with you!

more original photos. what do you think?

Olloclip-iPhone-7-21 i’ve been going around using my iPhone to take some shots around chicago. i want to punch this blog up with shots that i’ve taken. i wish i can share with you some archival photos at least those that i have never before published. time will tell on that.

although to be sure i can share more current photographs of the city as i see it. perhaps you may see hints of where i formerly work or even where i do work now. to be sure i may never identify any of those places as such but you may see them.

oh not just places i have worked certainly places i have frequented over time. i hope you enjoy the new presentation.

besides once a commenter suggested seeing a photo montage from the “mid-thirties virgin” although now it’s the “almost 40 virgin” at this point.