Odds & Ends

I’ve decided not to go for the position in my old dept because reasons. I asked the former buyer now assistant manager when the position will close and he had said it had closed already. Although it was still on our company’s social network for over two weeks. Still my gut tells me it’s not my time yet, and that’s fine until hopefully they might need someone else to help out on buy/receive.

The former associate buyer is going for it, he said so himself as he wants to go back anyway. However, one of the supervisors is going for it at this time as well. Who knows what’ll happen the new assistant manager believes that the former associate buyer might remain where he is for now.

I spoke to the supervisor days before the interview and it sounds like sales are going in the right direction at this point. Up 60% compared to where the dept was as the pandemic was in full swing and before I got transferred out. Perhaps we shall see what happens with the buyer thing and perhaps they’ll finally post for additional help to fulfill that role in that dept in the near future.

* I got an update on being my dept’s team receiver. The man who originally held the job might be coming back soon, however, to light duty. It seems he’s been sheepish about his condition. From what I was told he had his own issues with attendance evidently so perhaps there aren’t many who are upset if he just ups and quits. But then we have a month to see what happens with him.

At first I thought his absence was due to this bug. However, I got the idea that he was badly injured at some point. Again from what I was told the team receiver just isn’t forthcoming with details on his condition. Again we’ll see what happens.

I’ve been handling that young man’s duties for a while now. Recently I find myself really dividing my time between the floor and the backstock areas. Often by choice fairly recently my boss had me make some signs as we had an audit from a higher up checking on the accuracy of our retail signage. Regardless I call it real work as opposed to just putting stuff away as of late. To another receiver I called this “real work”…

Either way as far as moving up and making a few extra change I’ll remain diligent to see what positions are available to me. Certainly to pursue the ones that I really like and especially ones that I know I can take public transit to. I still got my eye on the Hole don’t think I’ve forgotten about them!

* Here’s a throwback for you.

I learned recently that the General Manager and his first officer the House Manager are no longer at The Show. From a dubious source I refer to as Woz I was also told that the GM was let go because it was discovered that he stole some cash. I wrongfully told Woz that I heard some inklings. Either way The Show on it’s jobs page is showing an opening for a GM there which has been up for just about a week now.

The little intelligence I know about the GM is that he painstakingly squeezes any profit he can out of The Show. He’s a real cheapskate and might explain why they just don’t believe in raises. Another thing we know about him is that he’s just not a people person, he’s all business. I sort of respect him because he’s aloof, many of the other managers just sort of get into stuff.

This allows me to someone revisit the episode Petty. That’s a case in point, HM gets involved with a case of “he bumped into me do something” and he digs right in. What helped to end it was GM got involved. I wasn’t budging from my position I didn’t see why HM got involved in it and if I have to say excuse me then so should the antagonist, Kelly. As a manager – something I never got promoted to do – I hope I’d handle it much differently than HM. The GM probably handled this the best way as HM couldn’t settle this and GM witnessed that we were going at it. GM probably got keyed in after I responded to HM’s very sad attempt at raising his voice at yours truly.

How do I know I defeated HM? It seemed once we were sequestered in the mgmt office GM & HM were just trying to tell me how it’s a common courtesy to just say excuse me. Except the frustration of this situation just got in my head and I wasn’t accepting that. I cut off GM and told him for the last time I’m not saying excuse me to Kelly until she says excuse me to me. The GM in frustration said nothing and turned to HM and HM had a problem he took it from there. Not that the aftermath was handled more smoothly by HM in the long run….

Also it seemed GM had backed HM over the years and its a wonder that HM remained as a manager. Well what I do know is that if mgmt don’t like you they’ll hurry up and hustle you out. Perhaps on some level that was how many of them felt about yours truly. It took me a minute to finally leave and thankfully I left on my own terms. However it became clear among some of them that my presence there was an issue to them it could be performance, though it might just be serious personality differences too. I think that’s sad a manager can’t work with a person due to personality differences. Perhaps they’re in the wrong job not just yours truly.

All the same whatever dubious story Woz told and as of yet I’m unsure how to verify. It just means more significant changes has happened at The Show or $h!tplace. It could be good it could be bad, but just time for someone else to run it for now. Perhaps I should re-apply. 😛

Anyway I consider Woz’s story to be dubious but I can believe due to this pandemic the company that owns The Show has opted to make a few changes in the long run. I would much believe that in the long run than any attempts to skim money.

* Oh man I can’t believe it’s been going on seven years since I left The Show. If you can’t tell over the years on this blog, I’ve been counting the time away. I like where I am now however as have been experienced in the last few years I shouldn’t get too comfortable or complacent. When it comes to compensation my standards still aren’t very high. At the same time where I am now isn’t necessarily where I’m destined to stay. That’s just fine with me.

Some of my young cohorts thought I’d still be at the theater. At some point it was time for me to leave, one confused young lady when I stated what my future would be which was “hopefully retired” stated confused “retired….from here”. I suppose she just had to say something, but no need to take stock in anything she needs to say. Others have especially her peers I just attribute her sphere of influence to immaturity.

Regardless what an era which I often look at in terms of character building. Certainly in terms of rebuilding and just getting established. Outside of a classroom I didn’t have that or never really actively created that. Also I should know how to conduct myself with people however one lesson learned is don’t take $h!t from anyone. And still be careful if you’d rather earn a paycheck until you can say I don’t need a boss and you can support yourself on your own.

Either way I do find myself wondering where many of the young people I have worked with are doing now. And there is some inkling one works in a variety of kitchens and wouldn’t be too surprised if he becomes a chef. Another seems to be doing blue collar work judging by some of his instagram posts – hmmmm if only I had that vision years ago. Some have joined the armed services, others have graduated college, and others may have left the theater but not doing anything much different. However, I’ve never been so relieved to have quit $h!tplace as I have been right now.

Earlier in this pandemic, when cinemas closed down I recognized that this is when I would be out of work. Perhaps have to file for unemployment and in this case I wouldn’t be fired just laid off. So free money for as long as it’s available. However, I’m much happier to be getting out of the house to work at a grocery store as opposed to be sitting at home though I could live without many of these controversial mitigations.

* Future plans this month. Well I still plan to visit my episode where I have my last real convo with Anthony. It was regarding an encounter with yet another strange person I met from The Show whom I call Deranged Barney. I suppose I should be through talking about a man I know call The Fiend and I’m not. Though it seems like that story line needs to wind down as well I’ve really said what was necessary.

Another thing about Planet Hustle I’ve explored was leaving The Show and I wrote a post years ago about The Crisis. These days I feel as if The Fiend created a crisis in the ways that only he could. A lot of gossip and manipulation to get me to go into his direction. I’ll leave it up to you if he was successful or not. That’s another direction I can go.

Another thing I have great relief over is The Fiend can no longer stay in contact and decide to just inject his influence. If something is going on that doesn’t “suit him” he’ll try to do something about it. If that means he goes negative he will. If that means he’ll inject a piece of advice that isn’t necessary he will. Whatever his advice it will always suit him and not really be the best for me. Perhaps more accurate these are things he would do more than this is what I must do.

I suppose another lesson from my time at the theater is that I can see some patterns and tendencies better than I used to. Too bad that it took a few years for these lessons to stick. I just need to be better able to cut things off before it really becomes an issue. Reminds me of a meme…

An ongoing process.

Decisions, Decisions

More changes in my old dept, the longtime lead buyer for my old dept has moved up to assistant manager. And I saw recently that my old dept is now looking for a buyer. Could your’s truly step up to the plate?

Well I spoke to my old dept’s former associate buyer. He still doesn’t like his new assignment and it’s been a year. Sounds like a lot more work for him. He has to pitch in when they’re short, he has to deal with different vendors as a buyer, just a lot of things he’s just tired of. However, I can assume he’s a shoo-in for taking on that lead buyer role.

As for me with my current assignment I’ve been allowed to do the receiving. It’s a lot more product than I had to deal with in my old dept, however, for the most part I really don’t have to deal with customers though as of late I put product on the floor especially if there are empty slots. I feel as if that slows me down, but then yours truly hasn’t been the quickest draw in the room.

If you’re asking me if I’m ready to essentially be my dept’s lead buyer honestly I don’t know. I’m tempted to pitch being ready for the position of team receiver and would like to recommend that to the new leadership of my old dept. Especially if I’m just not ready to assume that responsibility.

When I went for associate buyer a few years ago it was a fail. I have to admit that and it was a minute before having to recognize that. It was the feedback of my then boss although not necessarily the feedback from others on the panel at that time. There were some things were on the right track on, just my presentation was terrible. Interviewing is always a pressure cooker regardless of the job you’re pursing from janitor, to burger flipper to an executive manager. It has been more iffy for me than not over the years and there were very rare occasions where it just clicked.

Also, depending upon the job you can’t just do the same thing on other successful interviews with an interview for a better position. So that last interview over two years ago was another lesson. I like to say I’m used to winging it on most entry level interviews where I got the job. Can’t do that for higher level positions.

Regardless I have some decisions to make…

June & changes

Well a lot of changes at work.

To start finally last month the string of nights have just ended. As of late most of my shifts involves breaking down the load for my dept. Sometimes I feel as if I’m not work as fast as possible. However there are days where the job gets done and proud of those.

Our team receiver hasn’t been to work since about January and thus we had a few months where no one was available to do the load. And often those duties rotated between me and two new hires. One of those new hires has since left although still listed on Fresh’s social network. The other has transitioned to other tasks and for now that leaves me.

We lost a few people during the last two months one just had issues with tardies – sound familiar. The other not sure or nothing that I’ve heard about what happened. Just know that he’s no longer listed on the company’s social network and at one point my dept had a posting looking for another full-time worker. We’ve since posted for new people to replace those who have moved on.

Either way it would be cool to be the team receiver and to do something different than dealing with customers and that leads to another new situation. There have been changes to my old dept as the dept mgr who hired me is moving on. I’ve been knowing about that since at least April and one of his assistant managers have ascended to replace him. And with the easing of these pandemic restrictions my old dept is now hiring full-time or part-time and that means I could go back, right?

Well I thought they’d give us “dibs” once the situation changes. So far no one is banging down on my door as of yet. So my consideration is do I really want to go back and do the same thing I had been doing? I’d rather deal with heavy containers of product than deal with mentally heavy customers and especially with food. So that’s my consideration for now, if they offer me a “good deal” to return then it’s worth it.

I suppose for now thats the consideration with returning to the Hole. I see they’re still looking for full-timers, however, I did express interest via email with one of the assistant managers. He never responded only he knows why, but what I would’ve liked to do is see if I can get back into the buy/receive that I had started there four years ago. Who knows if it’s advisable or even doable…

As a matter of face sometime in April Larry actually came to my assignment. Since my former dept mgr’s job was up I figured perhaps he was there to check out the dept, instead I later saw that he was helping out another dept. I had decided in my head that perhaps he wasn’t trying to go for it. Just there to help out as mgmt as it were.

Although speaking of that dept, which is next to my old team they’re looking for a new dept mgr. The young man who took on the role lasted just about six or so months and shockingly they’re looking for another one. Perhaps for him it just wasn’t working out for him – wait sounds familiar doesn’t it? Anyway since I never had the opportunity to get to know the young man who knows what his issues were.

Well all I can say for now is that change is a best. Either adjust/adapt or get out of the way!

“He knows you’re using him”

A coworker from The Show – well formerly from there anyway – still talks to the Fiend and let me know he’s been talking about me a lot. There have been some inklings of it over the past year and heard more now. I also hear that Anthony is engaged to be married, remember sometime last year I noted he’s showing himself in the lovely embrace of an older woman. I said some choice things to this friend in light of the Hustler talking about me behind my back.

Of course not a lot of this should be a huge surprise. Even back when he just insisted on coming around back then just about a decade ago he was doing things like this. Perhaps Anthony just has such a negative view of yours truly even then and even when on the surface he was seemingly a good friend.

Either way since I’ve cut ties to him as of 2018 this revelation only serves to let me know it’s working. If he’s really running me down about a lot of the things he’s known about me even back then to even insisting on knowing my sexual status the main conclusion he’s upset that I’ve simply dropped him.

Basically he’s upset that I won’t talk to him. Think about it the last contact I’ve had with him was in 2019 he called me on Christmas Day and I never responded to his call or text. The last time we’ve actually talked was just about four years ago and it was a convo that seemingly fell off the rails.

At the same time did I get upset, yes. I even said to the coworker when seeing him on my way to the job that I hope the Fiend’s marriage fails. Even going so far to predict that he’s going to get divorced, even the coworker joked for “the fourth time” as he’s aware of some of Anthony’s personal failings. I immediately regretted that and called that coworker realizing I stooped to the Hustler’s level as my comments represented what he would do.

We talked about it a while as we have been over the years. He’s aware of the rift and tried to address whatever Ant was trying to bring up about my time at The Show. Again not surprised since he seems to remember the past or selectively remembers what he wants to remember. I’m not a very good friend as he’s so hard up I had to pay for his lunch, or when he didn’t have a car he got treated to rides in my mother’s vehicle that she lent me to go to any late shifts I had or the money he’s borrowed (at one time for a hot dog from the concession stand). Oh yeah I’m some friend, in reality yours truly could say the same for him.

Now the title of this post is a quote relayed to me by this coworker as told to Ant. True to form the Fiend denies it claiming he’s given me gas money and paid back all money which he hasn’t. He’s never given me gas money for rides in my mother’s car. He only does so when it’s convenient for him and worst still he might still come around and borrow money on top of money he already owes.

So the last time I really spoke to him he borrowed $100 for his son’s medical bills, I specifically told him as we left that barbershop that when he gets situated I wanted that money back. Of course we don’t really talk for a few months other than a random text pledging to repay that money he borrowed. Then once the blackout starts he starts calling and I wonder why, another small cash infusion? So more money on top of money he needs to pay back.

Now it could be also said that I never adequately stood up to him. I know him well enough to know that he’ll only add stress. Perhaps he’s saying what he wants now because I dropped him and he’s still not happy about it. He couldn’t just move on and not talk about me – perhaps you could say the same for me. I just think that if I confronted him he’ll just deny and throw it back onto yours truly. He’s going to establish his dominance and try to re-assert his role as a disappointed father. He’ll never recognize why after so much time I finally just backed away.

I’m glad I have one less stress on my plate, however, my handicap is to dwell on this whole episode as I have been doing. It’s a lesson learned as I seek to become my own version of The Head of the Table.

Meanwhile….

The other day I talked with a colleague at work who was sitting in an office completing their performance review forms so that they can get a raise. He remains in my old dept and for over a year dropped down to part-time status as he wanted to go back to school and finish his undergrad. He had the need to change careers, which is a good thing.

He wasn’t very optimistic about whether or not he’ll actually get a raise considering what’s been going on for almost the past year. We’re in a period of great uncertainty as we’re learning this bug has spawned a few mutations which thankfully are reportedly not very lethal, however, much more easily transmissible. And it seems for now the vaccine should could cover these variants…

Regardless back to the situation at hand he was considering what the sales might be and I just told him it pays to be more optimistic. You just never know although when mgmt wants to pick they will. The way I see it, yours truly still got his raise last year and who knows what the sales were not within my former dept but the whole store in general. Sales probably aren’t what they would be in general in far more normal times. However, once he meets with his mgmt he’ll know what the picture looks like.

As far as yours truly, well I’m still looking for some opportunities. Just about two years ago a store opened a bit closer to home it’s a straight shot down the street towards a nearby suburb and perhaps I should’ve looked into it before that store opened. However, I really liked working downtown and that mentality still haven’t escaped me. The only time I applied for a store in the neighborhoods was when another store was about to open closer to home and interviewed for a supervisor position although I don’t think it was a great interview. There were some lessons for that as there were lessons for my attempt for associate buyer just about two years ago.

Regardless what has my attention is a full-time position posted for my old dept at this other store. I guess one consideration is that it would get me right back where I started, while I want to progress. Also at yet another store there is another full-time position still within the city, however, a lot further north from downtown which means a much longer commute. I don’t take that opportunity as seriously as the one much closer to home. But then who knows that might be the one that works out, that’s how these opportunities seem to work out to be honest.

Believe it or not it’s been over six years where I started off at the Hole. I didn’t know if I wanted to be in a dept other than the front end doing cashiering. As happens unfortunately you get a bit comfortable and you don’t want to pick up and leave. That was true in 2015, it’s sort of true even now. I was just getting off of what happened at Gotham near the end of the previous year and that was a situation that proved it wasn’t working out. And considering that before getting the job offer to be a bank teller, I had also earlier interviewed to be a manager at a cinema near what would later become the Hole.

I could look at that whole situation and say it was meant for me to be in that neighborhood where the Hole was located. And for over two years it worked out for me. Not the way I envisioned in my head, however, it was much better than being stuck at The Show still making over $10K per year still after almost five years. I got a bit more although now six years later and with a refresh I’m closer to $30K per year. And I feel as if I’m still not close to my goal of moving up.

Aside from that tangent remember when I talked about working a lot of nights. It seems they listen when I sign off of a sheet at the end of the night. I say I want to learn to make signs they allowed me that opportunity, they gave me to opportunity to learn a new task and they allowed me a night to do so – even got a talking to about not using a cut-glove when doing it. And while there was some interest in me doing some receiving in my new department I asked to do that just in an effort to get some days instead of these constant nights. Well they’re giving me those shifts for the first time in months…

I felt a bit miserable doing these shifts in the beginning. I would be in a cooler a lot more than when I did receiving in my original department. There were a lot more items to put away than in my original department, so to think it’s a real workout than what I feel as if I was used to. At the same time I’m trying something so that it won’t be so late when I get home. And my favor I somewhat know how it goes and it might make it a bit easier to get back to the goal I started on before the climax of the reign of error.

Meanwhile this winter seems quite relentless with the cold weather and we just got hit by another heavy snowfall which I had to dig out of the nex day. Perhaps it’s time to consider a much warmer locale, however, they’re getting hit by winters they don’t often expect….

Either way still working and we’re not yet halfway through 2021….

February

You know I’ve been promising the Climax of the Reign of Error post since about September and I think this month is as good of a time to finally write about it. I’ve written a basic story about the time where I worked my last shifts at the Hole, but it’s going to be the culmination of the creative direction for that period of time.

This month proved to be a turning point during my hiatus from Fresh Foods as this month I learned that /goofball was no longer in his position over my former dept at the Hole. When I first heard about it, the information I got was that he had either stepped down or was demoted and resigned and his boss Morley was upset with him when he did depart. It seemed like such a short order when Rog departed and ultimately replaced by Larry who used to be part of the dept in the beginning until he accepted a promotion elsewhere.

Just as snow fell recently on the Chicago area, heavy snow fell on the Chicago area once I heard this news. However, what this meant was that it was OK for yours truly to start re-applying and had started immediately upon hearing the news. Began to really test the waters with one of the supervisors who contacted me once the proverbial hammer fell.

Another thing of note in that period. Anthony my old friend who started coming back into contact with a series a phone calls from a number I did not recognize. And a text message with no identification asking yours truly to call him. I never did and an answer to this is considering the situation I unexpectedly found myself in starting in October. I didn’t want him to take that news and run with it as I figured he would.

As much as I want to transition away from that frequent subject, I do want to add some more thoughts to that this month. Even had been working on a post re-running that time he tried to get me on a date with someone we had worked with. It was a fail all around, but let’s further explore that. Perhaps it’ll be the perfect “anti-Valentine’s Day” piece.

Meanwhile, I continue to dig out and stay warm in these uncertain times. Hopefully you’re staying safe wherever you are right now!

What’s new

Lately at work I’ve been stuck with a bunch of nights lately, and I’m not happy about it. One way to look at this is well if I got there at 7 AM by the time I get off with no coffee I’m going to doze off when going home on the train. On the other hand if I have to go in later I sleep in. Going in early has drawbacks, but so does going in later and especially if I take public transit.

Either way I’ve been trying to decide how to put an end to these constant nights. Everyone once in a while is one thing, just about every night is another. Really this began before I left the other department and even then it wasn’t this consistent. I’m trying to avoid being a whiner because I’ve already worked with a number of those types anyway in my work life.

Either way I wish I had some more midshifts because at least I won’t just be leaving work at around 10:00 at night. I’d be fine leaving work at 8:00 but those are not the shifts I’m drawing lately.

I do want to express alternatives I’ve been looking at as been discussed occasionally since the pandemic started. Sadly some bad habits crop up when looking into these alternatives for example leaving the store and/or going to another department.

Last month I found out that one of my old supervisors from my old dept had left to go to my old store the Hole. I ran into him one day going there and shopping, I had little idea that he left my assignment. He was with us for a short time from just before the pandemic so more than a relatively respectable amount of time. According to him he just wanted to work at the Hole because it was more convenient for him and closer to home.

Well there’s one possibility going back to my old dept and taking his spot. So far my old dept hasn’t posted for another supervisor, they also lost an assistant mgr as he took on the same role at another store again closer to home for him. So far my old dept hasn’t posted for another assistant mgr and no I don’t think it’s the right role for yours truly right now. Supervisor I wouldn’t mind interviewing for, and then again who knows they could just elevate their trainer into that role if they so chose. If they feel there is a gap in coverage then that could be a step in the right direction.

One of the supervisors – actually he was a trainer when I tried to get back with the Hole just about three years ago – has moved onto another store. He’s now an assistant manager in a different department. I haven’t contacted him since he’s no longer on facebook evidently. That means my old dept at the Hole should be looking for another supervisor and so far see no such evidence of that.

You know it might just be sales don’t support doing any hiring for any higher level positions as of late due to the pandemic. Remember I always stated it was more likely for me to return to the Hole than it is for yours truly returning to The Show. However, the holidays come and gone and I see nothing is still going on with my former department. Perhaps this whole thing has really did a number with the old team which I know is a much different team today. Regardless while my old team at my current store has hired new people although there are people (mostly part-times unlike yours truly) who got shunted away to other departments were surely told they have “dibs” on any future hiring that just hasn’t happened assuming they don’t want to go back to that department.

I had passed up one opportunity I could be interested in. It was at the store closest to The Show meaning a return to the old neighborhood as it were. I would be a receiver in yet another dept so it would be up my alley and expectantly earlier start time. That posting was up for a couple of weeks and I see it has since been taken down. Perhaps they found someone they want to interview or they just had no takers so far. It’s something I do want to get back into which I why I hoped the Hole would finally post for those positions by now.

When I first wrote this post I found a position that Larry has finally posted for at my old dept at the Hole. It’s a part-time position and right now I’m just not interested in that. I’ll keep my eye out for something I think I could apply for there. Meanwhile I just need to keep my options open. Meanwhile let’s go back to the close I had already written.

Unfortunately there goes my handicap. Going for what I want instead of taking the opportunities available. I want to return to the Hole with some of the changes there, however, nothing for me to pursue. I can’t help but hesitate with opportunities other than the Hole or even my current assignment. I just need to create my plan and work the plan….

Otherwise that’s what’s been happening with me so far this year. Here’s hoping 2021 is a better year.

December

Before I knew it was December and usually I update this blog often enough to find things to talk about even retreading some old stories. I still haven’t put a satisfactory story together to discuss the climax of the reign of error. I hope to be motivated to do so during the course of this month the last one of 2020 a very fantastical year in my own memory. I hope 2021 will start off differently.

I had a nice discussion with my mother recently and I basically led with some unusual occurances at Fresh Foods in other stores. For example one of my former colleagues Mr. Boastful had moved on to Fresh’s flagship store to become a buyer and during the course of the year witnessed a regime change as the boss who hired him moved on.

Reportedly by someone who’s formerly worked with the company and who I formerly worked with at my current assignment that manager was essentially fired and now he’s no longer with the company. His job was posted though at some point he eventually left before I finally saw that they filled his old position. I get the feeling that Mr. Boastful will find himself going elsewhere in the near future he is the type who will get a bit disatisfied with his role and surely it’s because he knows he can do better.

Another odd occurance is that the store manager is also leaving as his job is now up. For now he remains in his current position however time will tell to find out if he’s leaving the company or he’s just moving up or moving on. Probably unlike what happened in 2019 with the Hole’s former mgr Morley. However in both cases I’m out of the loop and only they know what’s going on.

As far as the dept mgr who’s gone, I’ve never met him. When I arrived on the scene at my store he had left a while back. I didn’t hear many good things about him and often his portrayal of that was as a hard manager. At least he made good money at Fresh’s flagship store as it had been one of the top stores of the region.

Meanwhile as the pandemic continues I’m still surviving and looking for the right position. I’m still hoping Larry will have a position available for me to pursue in the near future. His dept hasn’t been hiring at all since this pandemic became a thing. It is what it is, I want to finish what I had started during the Reign of Error. I want to be able to do what I wanted over two years ago.

For now all I can do is pursue the opportunities that are available for me as of now. And I hope to do a bit more posting during the course of this month 🙂

Vehicles

When talking about going out of my comfort zone one of those things is assuming responsibilities that I often presume I’m not ready for. I’ve yet to own my own car although I do have my license true since I was 21.

Often I do think about what kind of car do I want. Do I want to peruse the classified ads, Craigslist, or even facebook listings for a cheap ride? Or do I just want to get what I can from a good dealer.

When I think about buying a car I want to get a luxury car. Almost like what my mother has although I don’t want the same brand. For example I always desired a Cadillac, but then I’ve got my eye on a Lincoln lately. I make good money – even with student loans – to possible get a late model entry-level luxury car which is worth in the low $30K range. The question is should I get such a vehicle.

I want to share this Doug DeMuro video from earlier this year. I got my eye on the Lincoln Corsair. As far as a car for myself – to go wherever I please at any given time so that I won’t have to take public transportation to work all the time – well perhaps within the next year I’ll get that done.

Changes

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The continuing issues with this bug going around in this world has caused some changes at work. To start I work in another department currently and it feels rough. I never realized how much it sucked to be the new guy. To be doing something that’s relatively unfamiliar and dealing with new managers.

My mindset has been this is just learning something new which is great to go outside my comfort level. I suppose that right now it’s just difficult to be upbeat about this. For one thing the change happened very quickly within days – perhaps about 7+ days – after my boss pulls me aside and asks what department I’d like to work in, I’m working in that department.

My gut feeling is starting to tell me that it’s going to feel like making the transition to the bank and it was a very rough transition just about six years ago. It didn’t go well and although I’m in a different sort of workplace at this point my goal is to listen to my instinct. It could be wrong, but is it?

I was told that once the situation in our department gets back to some semblance to normal as far as sales we’ll be asked if we want to return to the team. However, by my boss it’s characterized as an outright transfer. Part of me thinks they’re just casting out the weak performers in this critical time, but then again my dept mgmt sent their associate buyer to another department to help that team out. So perhaps it’s not as dark as my gut wants to believe. Regardless I’m lead to believe this situation is only temporary, however, the way things are going temporary might become months.

What I had to tell another coworker who got shifted into another department is that I’m still getting used to it also, but I just have to give it some time. Part of me wants to throw in the towel, not quit but definitely register my unhappiness with this situation. And there isn’t much that can be done about it if my department right now isn’t making the sales it would normally would before this pandemic hit.

I had hoped that by now we’d be coming out of it, however, in the news some states are registering new surges of infections. Clearly this bug isn’t going away even as the weather gets nicer and there are some people who are choosing to do whatever they want to do and risk getting themselves infected. My part of the world has been doing very well with their rates and moving onto a new phase in reopening the economy. However I had to admit I never thought this would keep going and going and going.

I feel a tad blindsided by the situation at work. Not so much because it came out of nowhere, I feel as if it should’ve been done months ago. There was a period of time where we were slow, however, as things began to ease as far as these quarantining measures business began to pick up. Also we lost our store manager all we know is that he was “separated” from the company a few weeks ago. So I think this chaos we’re experiencing now is also a result of that situation.

Either way as of now I’m weighing some options within the company and outside the company although I don’t see too many options considering the pandemic. All that can be done for now is to continue soldiering through the situation.